I hope im writing this , in the right place. And I'll try to write this as good as I can and I feel I should type this before reading anyone else's story.
I think I was 14 years old when I started drinking. And I was 17 when I started drinking all the time. I would drink over 4-5 days a week or more. it wasn't until last year , I went one week with out drinking. Because I didn't have the money too. But the last couple years ive cut back some. But only gone a few days without drinking. So here I am typing this at age 29.
It's been a long but quick 13 years, if that makes any sense at all. But wasn't it fun at times. Horrible other times , getting sick , saying ill never drink again. I don't know how many times I've said that. Drinking also lead me down the road to drugs. Which I don't admit to anyone, only to few close friends that knew anyways. I was never addicted to the drugs though, idk. But I gave that up a few years ago now. I have ruined , I don't know how many friendships over the years. But I guess that's what comes with , being an alcoholic.
Now I feel I'm ready to give up the drinking too. Last night I drank my usual to get a buzz on and didn't even get drunk. Now I can't sleep. I want to be done with this. I'm sick of being sick. Sick of all the things that come with being an alcoholic! I really hope I can make this the day I quit drinking !!! Today is also my forth month without cigarettes ,which I believe God helped me over come and i have faith that this is my AA birthday! ~ I'm becoming the perfect Miracle :)
Hey Nicole. I also quit drinking after 4 months of no smoking, and after 15 years of solid drinking, so i can relate 100%. Stick with, day by day, it works. Its hard and there will be struggles but I can say this past 11 months have been great. Stick around.
Welcome, Nicole! Thanks for sharing your story here. Have you found a meeting you can get to today? 90 meetings the first 90 days sets up a great program of sobriety for many of us. You CAN do this, one day at a time. :)
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I think there's an invisible principle of living...if we believe we're guided through every step of our lives, we are. Its a lovely sight, watching it work.
Oh I forgot to tell you in case you weren't aware you can GOOGLE www.aa.org for our website and find out all kinds of info about the program,meetings,and literature,pamphlets and flyers that will familiarize yourself with the fellowship.Better yet ,stop in a meeting near you.You can also find a meeting place near you on the site..
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Selfishness-self-centeredness! That, we think, is the root of our troubles.
Lots of prayer, Nicole. It's amazing how God will sustain us sober and sane, if only we ask Him. We all have our daily battles, but there is One who has all power. That One is God.
As long as you are willing to go to any length to stop drinking, we can help show you the way ... ... ... 1st, 90 meetings in 90 days is very highly recommended, 2nd, get an AA Big Book and a sponsor ... the sponsor can be temporary so don't worry about getting 'locked' in with someone you can't stand ...
Try to get through the sleepless nights by reading AA books and material ... you will be tempted greatly to have a drink just to get some sleep, but it won't be a 'restful' sleep, you'll wake-up just as tired if not more so than if you just don't drink ... ... ...
Stay on this board for a long time if you need to ... it doesn't usually take too long to find someone in a talkative mood ... we have a PM (Private Message) system here too if you want to discuss certain things with just one person instead of the whole group ... it's a great tool ... ... ...
Love you and God Bless, Pappy
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'Those who leave everything in God's hand will eventually see God's hand in everything.'
Welcome Nicole! Prayers sent your way. Your story sounds a lot like mine. When the wreckage(emotional/physical) outweighed the pleasures of drinking and alcohol stopped working, it was time for a change. I too was sick and tired of being sick and tired. Pain is the touchstone for change. Sounds like you're at the turning point, AA is a program of action that can transform you and your life. I hope you stay with us here on the recovery path.
Hey Nicole : ) I can relate to your story! I am 34 now, and came into the program last year at 33. I wish I could have done it at your age, but I was still thinking that somehow motherhood would cure me of alcoholism at that point.
I'm glad to know now that there is no cure, but there is a solution, and we don't ever have to drink again if we can stick to the program of AA.
I came here first, just like you, and people finally convinced me to try my first meeting. I finally did, and I just cried through it, but I went back again, and again... and pretty soon, that thing I thought would not or could not ever take place happened: The desire to drink was removed! I could not fathom a life not drinking, and also not thinking about drinking or wishing I could be drinking. Just could not see how that was possible.
I kept hearing other people say how they felt like that in the beginning, and after some time in AA and working the steps, reading the big book alcoholics anonymous and getting a sponsor - they didn't have to drink anymore, or even want to!!!! I wanted that. And I did what they did, and got it : ) I hope you do too!
Keep us posted on your progress please, we care about your journey and will help you every step of the way.
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Thanks for everything. Peace and Love on your journey.
Thanks everyone! I don't have access to meetings where I live. But I'll Definitely read the book and try to come here often . Thanks for your support really means a lot to me even though we don't really know each other . Thanks again :)
