Before I got sober I did not understand the need for balance in life. So, I am currently in a rather insane work-education situation for the next month which is a product of the unbalanced situation I got myself into. Things should improve in the summer.
Today I have not felt well. I was in a work situation today where there was a lot of gossip and snark flying around and I got kind of caught up in it. As I was leaving work I felt really gross and as I was walking to the bus stop a craving for a big drink hit me like a ton of bricks. I just wanted a big hit to the head and I wanted it instantly.
I am not in fit spiritual condition. I'm run down, I'm tired, I'm unbalanced, and I was engaging in the kind of chatter that I don't feel good about. I was supposed to go to another work event this evening, but after reflecting on the way home I am going to stay in, go grocery shopping (sorely needed), spend time with my husband, and go to bed early.
I am grateful that I can see this for what it is, and not just carry on as is. I'm taking the time to pause and reflect and get myself right.
I am glad you made it through this period of trial ... may I suggest re-reading pgs. 86 and 87 in the BB ... after following this guide for spiritual improvement for some time, I felt a closer connection to my 'higher power', whom I chose to call God ... I draw great strength from this daily routine described in the pages there ...
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'Those who leave everything in God's hand will eventually see God's hand in everything.'
Yes, great insight! I did a similar thing for my first 7 months- I was so burnt I wasn't aware of how unhealthy I was - including physically. Poor nutrition and running on an average of 4 hours of sleep did little for my mental, emotional or spiritual well being. I'm glad to hear it'll ease up come summer- just in time for perfect relaxation weather:)
I agree with you I feel like i'm going though the same thing both mentally and physically, I cannot belive how much I have been eating and sleep and catching up on some old projects that should have been done months ago. I was talking to my client about a video i'm working on and i'm like I can have the next one done within a month , she said well you where going to have the last one done by febuary and I felt like responding well thats when I was drunk 5 out of 7 days. I've freed up alot more time.. lol i never said that but its the truth.
Kudos to you for practicing loving self-care. This disease is physical, mental, emotional and spiritual in nature. Taking loving care of our well being is one way to aid in the healing process, an important one at that. :)
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I think there's an invisible principle of living...if we believe we're guided through every step of our lives, we are. Its a lovely sight, watching it work.
