so..........this would be day one of no alcohol down the gullet; sick, but puking in a bowl instead of on the floor; not driving the kid back and forth to school because I'm no longer in a blackout and can't get out of bed; smell bad-haven't washed the dried vomit out of the hair yet, having thoughts that I might really be an alcoholic-can't seem to stop drinking when I decide I should or want to; stop but can't stay stopped, but...but....but....
Hey Lee,though it seems like light years ago and yet on any given day it can seem like yesterday.One of my favorite spiritual writings tell me"I waited patiently for my Higher Power(paraphased) and my cry was heard.With grace and mercy I was brought up out of a horrible pit,out of the muck and mire and my feet were placed on solid ground and my steps(STEPS) were established.(My wait wasn't to patient but my cry was also heard).A vivid picture and reminder of how it was and where we are now....Peace and blessings my friend..
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Selfishness-self-centeredness! That, we think, is the root of our troubles.
Grateful I don't have to live that way today!