i know a few of you know me, i've really tried to do the sober thing and failed alot the last few days i went days without sleep. so i descided to go party and it was way to crazy... i went to my pub it was doing a easter holiday thing.. . well i woke up just now pretty hung over .. everything is a tad foggy .. i remember bringing some girl home my livinging room is a mess I don't want to go into it .... i really tried to be sober but the lack of sleep was killing me really i went three days with no sleeep.. i know i screwed everthing up with my life ... i have a gfs shes probley pissed she called me this morning .. but i actually slept .. .. for me that mean more then alot ... i really have no clue where that girl last night went ... i need some guidance
i really need to sleep but if you saw my living room its not normal ... i wish i knew that girls name actually i don't cuz my gf is calling me and i got to got my familys house still
MandM, none of us are 'normal' either, that's why we're here! We know that feeling all too well. I know you don't want to go to a face to face meeting, but you will be surrounded by people who know what you're going through. You don't have to say anything, you can just sit and take it in and it will feel better just knowing you're not alone.
None of us are normal, we're alcoholics. In my early sobriety I went days without sleep also, it didn't kill me. I went to a lot of meetings. To be blunt, you seem to have a lot of excuses of why you can't put any sober time together. Hopefully you will get to meetings, and ask for help before you lose everything. If you truly want it, and follow the program you will stay sober. Good luck.
Thank you for the post MandM! It's a reminder to me that it doesn't get any better out there- only woarse. You helped me today and I'm grateful!
Lack of sleep is common in early sobriety. I've never heard of anyone dying from lack of sleep. You'll sleep when your body winds down(detoxs) and wants to sleep. Drinking will prolong this process and repeat the same pattern.
We drink because we're Alcoholics. That's what we do! Relapse was part of my journey as well- for years. Without help life is too much for us and we go back to doing the same thing we've always done to cope with life- drink. This is a solution. AA! Hope you go to a meeting soon.
If you're finished drinking, I mean finished completely, than it's time to make sobriety a God's honest reality. Some sober choices are more difficult than others, but the "stigmas" associated with not drinking is nothing more than fear, unresolved. And I completely relate to fear. Putting down the bottle was a terrifying ordeal for me; it felt worse than losing my first wife of 10 years. How would I unwind after a hard day at work? Where would I go, now that drinking is no longer an issue? These issues and others plagued me from day one.
It wasn't until I put my best foot forward that I actually felt the A.A. program working. I wasn't able to stay sober until it became the only thing that really mattered. Once that occurred, my life became nothing short of a miracle. But I had to admit to myself and others how powerless I was over alcohol -something I couldn't do while drinking. My suggestion; stay close. Find a home group or another support network and then watch the miracle unfold. Don't ever be ashamed that you have thoughts of using or drinking, but remind yourself daily that sobriety will always remain my priority, regardless. That's when our lives change for the better. Stay in touch, okay...
i'm really good at making excuses for drinking, I just got of the phone with my girlfriend shes cool so that mean i didn't drunk cal her but i slept like crazy from 4 am to 5 pm s i do feel alot better, I have been plagued with no sleep and terrible dreams so it has been really hard i really didn't want to drink yesterday but i really needed to sleep you have no idea. and i know its not a good excuse and i know they don't go together
Happy Easter MandM...in sobriety we change normal using practice of something different that gets us what we really want. First thing first is coming to understand what we really want. Loosing another hurt and banged up girlfirend is normal...it will come because it always has...normal. Loosing everything else is normal because that too has always happened.
Doctors do best about my lack of sleep not bartenders or anywhere liquor is sold without care or compassion. If you understood the chemical; it's ability to put you to sleep (induced coma) is just one of the unnatural things it does. There isn't a cell in your body, anywhere it will not reach and alter...go find out as you care to.
You're not dumb...you're addicted...gotta change that. Gotta a meeting and big book and sponsor near by; like between now and anywhere else you're planning to go? Folks here are powerless over your drinking just like you are. Take the suggestions. Be careful.
Mandm your post is a great remember when for me and it can be for you also. In the late 70s I was bouncing around like you indicated filled with guilt and remorse most mornings because each morning I had so much depression because The morning before I promised MYSELF I would not drink today. So like an immature person I was/am that promise along with many others were broken. Fortunately I went to several meetings a week BECAUSE OF the expression KEEP COMING in my head. Evidently things were said at these meetings that were needed to be heard and one day someone said you dont have to get sober again if you DONT pick up that first drink which was profound and made so much sense to me. After a lot of 24 hours, with a lot of WORK I may be becoming more mature. Work includes an effort to participate IN not around AA. All the things suggested were for my benefit in the long run. Just the job of making coffee got me to a meeting and hearing what I needed to hear at that moment and making many pots of coffee probably didnt help my sleep patterns either. KEEP COMING AND BE WELL!
