My sponser and I were talking the other day about her vacation home on the beach in Miami. She's one of these people who has money haha. One of those people I used to loathe. Well, shes earned it as a doctor who works insane hours. She out of the blue suggested that we go to celebrate my 1 year in May. It's right on the beach, with meetings within walking distance. A couple of things struck me about this plan. The first is she has every confidence that I will make it to one year. The second is that she liked me enough to want to spend a week alone with me. Also, how odd this proposition seemed to me- I haven't had a proper vacation ever. My idea of a 'vacation' was to visit my mom, who lives on the beach, and spend the entire time sitting in a dark bar between argueing with her over stuff that happened 25 years ago, telling myself this was 'the life'. It's a completely foreign concept to me, really. Then I got this weird sense of guilt- do I deserve a vacation? Should I spend money on such frivolous things when I have bills to pay?? What if I get antsy? What if I want to drink? Can I have fun without the booze? Without a strict, regimented schedule? What am I going to wear? I sunburn easily...and this is how my crazy head is LOL. Ok- Relax- its 2 months away!! I'm stressing about it already. I think I'm missing the point of a vacation on the beach. So I'm going- and I'm going to enjoy it Damnit!! Who stresses over the prospect of a relaxing vacation?? This girl, that's who. Hahaha. Oh, man! I am a nut
I would be hard pressed to disgree with you Col! ... (being a 'nut' part ... LOL)
I for one think this is GREAT ... I envy you already ... and just think, what better way to vacation than with your SPONSOR ... ... ... if you have any problems ... WELL, your SPONSOR is right there .... WOW ... how could it get any better???
I mean, it sounds like the majority of the expense is taken care of ... and who in the world would want to vacation by themselves??? ... Congrats my dear, your blessings are overflowing ...
God Bless, Pappy
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I have the same misgivings about vacations in sobriety. Previously, vacations were a great excuse to drink all day. A vacation with your sponsor sounds perfect. You can tell me how it goes, okay?
A day at a time Col.......We just moved to Pompano Beach in May of 2012 and love it here from New York...Continue working your process,try not to project too much..,,,one thing I remember said to me early on was '' We can plan for tomorrow but not at the wasted expense of today!!! Lost dreams awaken and new possibilities arise in recovery..........exciting huh!!
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quoted for truth! I got the worst sunburn ever in Miami. fell asleep with my legs sticking out from under some shade, There were still red and pink into the winter.
Col, I can so relate! Fear of the unknown. The unanswered questions. You're not nuts- you're an Alcoholic, just like me! O.K., so we're all nuts. That's o.k. today. We're working on it. Have faith that you're HP put this vacation in your path. Then turn it over to him and proceed one step at a time. Have a great time and be sure to let us know how it goes. We can all learn from this!
O.K., so we're all nuts. That's o.k. today. 
Have a great time and be sure to let us know how it goes. We can all learn from this!