They are putting huge power lines up in our front yard. I over reacted immediately. They put the pole up, and I called the realtor and told her I wanted her to put my house up for sale. I spent 2 hours reading about kids and leukemia and all kinds of other stuff that can happen when you live under power lines. I cried and got hard headed with my husband telling him I'd leave him if he wouldn't let me move - that I was out of here... I wasn't going to watch my kids die of cancer!
Then I called my sponsor, and I didn't calm down. I was still reacting on my emotions.
Then I spoke to my realtor a bit more, and she actually got me thinking that this may just be the way of progress... that there is no getting away from things that cause cancer. This lady is amazing in a lot of ways. I told her to do a market analysis... I HAD TO know how much this was going to depreciate my property value that I worked SO STINKING hard to get paid off before the kids go to college, and now for WHAT??? For it to be worth nothing????
And then I remember that I don't know what's best for me, and that I do know a God, even though I do not understand Him, and that I do believe that it's going to be okay. And I'm instantly all better and feeling a tad silly for my 24 hours of wild and crazy Natasha's cookoo party land in her brain!
Recovery RoCks!
-- Edited by justadrunk on Thursday 14th of March 2013 09:46:52 PM
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Ha! ... ... ... I'm glad there' a good 1,500 miles between us when you're in one of those moods ... LOL
You do realize that it takes years of exposure to cause cancer that way ??? ... and that in today's economy, the majority of us with houses have seen a decline in value over the last four years ... with no power lines being added to our property ... there are exceptions, but very few that I know of ...
When we bought our last house 11 years ago, we calculated a certain margin of return on investment as anyone will do ... because of the economy and the housing market today, we have calculated a loss of approx. $200,000 ... ... ... which we were counting on for 1/2 our retirement ... Poof, it's gone ... ... ... just so you know you are not alone with personal problems today ... we've all got'em ... ... ... and yes, it's always better to be grateful for what we have, than to get angry for what we think we should have ...
You should have time to discuss with the power company, the amount of power or 'radiation' that will be coming from those lines ... if you are still uncomfortable, then plan your future move wisely ... don't do anything in a panic, that is definitely the wrong move ... ... ... remember, some deep breathing and just relax for a while ... Prayer will help make sure that whatever happens, it will be okay ... actually, 8it sounds like you are doing just what I suggested already ... Good Girl ... ... ... Goooood Girl ...
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'Those who leave everything in God's hand will eventually see God's hand in everything.'
what a blessing to have a power greater than ourselves to restore us to sanity!!
Ditto!!!! I have needed this power many times over the past weeks, and am so grateful for it. For me, sobriety and recovery doesn't mean that I'm never going to get sideways again about things, but that I can now recognize it and choose to do something different if I want. That is a direct result of my HP and AA. Fantastic that we get to see that now, isn't it Tasha? Great job of using the tools we have been given. Have a great day. (((hugs))) & Peace
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I asked God for all things that I may enjoy life. He gave me life so that I may enjoy all things.
I personally would be not at all worried about cancer, but concerned about the decrease in property value. We build houses for a living and it will decrease the value, because potential buyers think it's ugly and they worry about cancer! It's out of your hands now anyways. I say don't clutter your brain with things that you can't do anything about.
that is the first thing came to my mind when you posted that ... only it was missing the 'LOL' I expected ... thanks for clarifying this!!! ... ... ...
-- Edited by Pythonpappy on Friday 15th of March 2013 08:45:42 PM
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'Those who leave everything in God's hand will eventually see God's hand in everything.'
I am glad for a place to share about these things. When I do - they lose their power some. If I keep it bottled up I'm just acting like an alcoholic. Thanks for listening people - and thanks for the support. The oldest old timer that I love, in my group the other day shared that he was so stinkin mad at his ex wife - his face even got red while he spoke. Then he said - I must share these things because I'm an alcoholic. I still have to do this after 42 years. He's awesome, and I plan to continue sharing the stuff that pisses me off for 42 years too : )
It's amazing how this program works when we can talk openly without being judged for being human.
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Tasha your sanity is being restored and I would like to know what channel your drama is on. I'll bet the presentation is great!! Call the Power Company and the Contractor putting up the power poles and such and demand they go underground in front of your house. If the power company is going to charge monthly and you are suffering a loss of value you want parity. Additionally ask your realtor for an easement study for the lines and construction. Find out if there was prior notice before you bought the house and you and your husband were out of the loop. Realtors stick together like physicians and police and still that shouldn't mean you come outless than. Realtors have disclosure insurance policies against disclaimers which cost the buyer and seller financial duress (use to be a realtor) and you can go after it if there is any cloud upon the purchase. If the realtor you refered to as "my" realtor has made a living off of the relationship hold it up in front of her. I use to go after other realtors who I was listed in the Realtors' Association who attempted to queer a deal just for the commission. That was early recovery so I could be extra nasty on purpose. lol In support. (((hugs)))
In my 1st year of sobriety, back in 1989, I had a legal battle with a car company that took me for a ride. Pardon the pun, lol. Anyway the thing was heading towards the courts. I went to my sponsor with a wad of legal papers, claiming that I was going to teach these "crooks" a lesson.
My sponsor looked at it very calmly and then said this: "Gonee, it looks like you will win this one in court." My ego jumped 2 steps up. Then he punctured it very slowly by saying: "But you will get drunk, whether you win or lose." He quoted these lines from the book: " As in war, the victor only Seemed to win. Our moments of triumph were short-lived." "If we were to live, we had to be free of anger. The grouch and the brainstorm were not for us. They may be the dubious luxury of normal men, but for alcoholics these things are poison."
I grudgingly wrote out that settlement cheque, the next day. Thank God, I did or else I would have been carry chain around my ankles for all these years.
They're installing 'what' in your front yard? "Power lines" did you say? Wow, that's so cool. I guess you're feeling more powerful then -hence the title "playing God". Sorry, couldn't resist. I guess the power went to my head -or yours, maybe. I'm wondering, though: Do you get compensated, somehow -being that it's on your property line and all? I'm just wondering. Have a great day sober, Tasha.
P.S. Remember the saying: "More power to the people"? I think this may apply. Don't get too carried away that's all. Alcoholics and egos, sheesh...
I kinda went off the day before yesterday about a requirement of my current customer. Came home and had a mini temper tantrum. a lot of contributing factors (pressure, 3 hours of jet lag + daylight savings, coming down with a cold, lot's of folks demanding my time and attentions). Bottom line, my spiritual condition was not strong. Time for some work.
