20 years ago, I was fired from my job. I had done nothing to warrant my dismissal. As I left the office I prayed: "Lord, you have changed my direction. Please let know what your will is for me."
I suddenly was faced with a very large financial burden, which humanly speaking were impossible to sort out. I decided to take the 3rd step seriously, with no reservation whatsoever. My wife helped me when my faith was weak. We started our new company. God was going to be the Director, who will make all the boardroom decisions. God was going to be my new Employer, who will dispense the work and pay the salaries.
All financial rewards were used for God's work, everybody shared in rewards. In turn He has given us peace and serenity in our lives.
That was 20 years ago my friend and it still works if we work it.
Amen my brother,,,with God all things are possible.....yes and awesome to have an angel to help us when our Faith falters,I also am blessed in that same vein...
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Selfishness-self-centeredness! That, we think, is the root of our troubles.
I was also fired, at 6 weeks sober. Disaster! some might say, but I ended up with another better job. Then I was thrown out of my flat, but got a better one. Every time a door closed, another opened. And my faith began to develop and grow.
"Fear of people and economic insecurity will leave us." :) God keeps His promises.
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I think there's an invisible principle of living...if we believe we're guided through every step of our lives, we are. Its a lovely sight, watching it work.
I remember reading this, or another post of yours, Gonee, that mentioned this story right around the time I got fired from my job. It helped me tremendously. Of course, I lost my job because of choices I made and it was deserved. I learned a few very valuable lessons from that experience. The first was that my HP took care of me during that time. The day it happened I was SURE it would sink my sobriety. I walked like a zombie to a park that I often hang out in, which just happens to be right across the street from one my my old favorite bars. I posted on here, called my sponser...and just say there freaking out and chain smoking for an hour or two until the nearest meeting began. Man- that bar was calling to me that day. But I didnt go in. I'm honestly Still shocked that I did not. My HP was definetly with me that day keeping my butt on that park bench.
Deja Vu Col ... You had a great 'growth' post back then ... I and 'we' were very proud of your progress in working the program back then, remember ???
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Ok.. I got fired days before Christmas.. It sucks. Ok, my usual m.o. Is to play victim, manipulate peoples sympathies, toy with their emotions and lie my way out of it. I could probably manipulate my way back into my job. I could tell my coworkers that our boss is a jerk who wronged me. I could portray myself as an angel of perfection and how could they do this to me?? After all I've done?!? Ha.. That's easy for me. Its what I DO. I'm pretty damn good at it, actually. What is not easy is to say " I f**ked up, I got caught." and look for other options. I'm not going to fight for my job, or attempt to defend myself. Im going to behave as though I am a sober WOMAN of grace and dignity (which my sponser keeps telling me that I am, I wonder if I've fooled her, too lol). I'm gonna be a grown up. I'm gonna work the heck outta this program. I'm gonna pray that I never make the same mistakes again. I'm not going to use the same tactics of deceit that Ive used most of my life. I want to drink when I do this, because I realize that I hide behind my perfect angel facade, then drink to oblivion because I know what a piece of crap I really am. I'm not doing it anymore. If it takes me getting fired and being dead broke to shed these defects of character, then I guess that's just how it's gonna be. Im tired of hiding behind my mask. I'm done I can't do it anymore. This may turn out to be the best f ing thing that's happened to me. I finally have no place to hide and have to face myself and some unpleasant consequences. And now I'm gonna go finish the 4th step that I've dragged out for way too long:) man, when people told me being sober was the hardest but best thing they've done I didn't really get it. I think I'm starting to get it.
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This was and is great inspiration for me ... and I thank you
Pappy
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'Those who leave everything in God's hand will eventually see God's hand in everything.'
Oh WOW, Pappy! Was that before or after my 'I'm just gonna go to the bar and screw it!!' meltdown? I'm guessing after... Hard to tell because, as I can read, this was a VERY dramatic and emotional time for me haha. Reading this, I can see how I was trying to direct anger towards positive change.
Oh WOW, Pappy! Was that before or after my 'I'm just gonna go to the bar and screw it!!' meltdown? I'm guessing after... Hard to tell because, as I can read, this was a VERY dramatic and emotional time for me haha. Reading this, I can see how I was trying to direct anger towards positive change.
It's all about change Col...My first couple months dry...I should have just walked around with a shirt that said I'M SORRY on it. I took anger to a new level.
