I broke down crying this afternoon while at my daughters house. Her boyfriend whom she lives with ended up stoned off his head. I had a melt down. On the way out I told her I won't be going back there while they are doing that. Her younger siblings don't need to be around it either. After leaving I had an urge for a drink. It flew in out of nowhere then as quick as it came it left again thank goodness. We're home now and the acceptance of the situation is now setting in. There is nothing to deny anymore. So starts another journey.
Tracey
Nice to hear it was a fleeting thought today Tracey and you didn't act on it! Great stuff right there. I'm reminded here of what my Sponsor tells me, your biggest problem isn't yours today. Good to keep that in mind and perspective today. We all have our journey, sounds like your daugther is starting hers. Prayers out to you and her that the journey takes a Spiritual route at some point in the near future.
Oh, how I can relate. I had this dream a few nights ago about my daughter. I don't remember all of it, but I do remember waking up with the sense that her life was in turmoil somehow. Later that day, I get a phone call, she wants to talk. I know by the tone of her voice, something is wrong. Long story short, her BF of 8 months, who she has been living with for 4 of them, is an alcoholic. She knew something of this before they moved in together, but had no inkling of what she was really signing on for. She had moved out of the house before my disease became so out of control there was no hiding it any longer. Most of her growing up years I was pretty good at lying and hiding. She knew there was unhappiness between her father and I when she was growing up. I have tried to be open and honest with her about how a lot of the turmoil she witnessed was a direct result of my untreated addicitons. She saw the chaos, but I blamed it all on her father, and she didn't know any better. Now she is experiencing her own chaos as a result of this disease. She is swinging from one end of the spectrum to the other, one minute she's done, over it, and ready to move on. But wait, she loves him. And everyone has always abandoned him when he's needed them the most. And she wants to help him. He laughed at her when she tried to talk to him about her concerns that he drinks too much. I am so torn between screaming and yelling at her to cut and run, what the hell is she thinking??? and staying out of what I know is not my business. So, I told her I'm here to support her, no matter what she decides. I had her downlaod the BB and gave her a few suggestions on reading, so she can at least know what shes dealing with. I suggested Al Anon. And I'm praying. praying for her, that she has strength to deal with her choices, praying for him, and praying for me to keep out of it !!!! So we'll be on this journey together, my friend. We are not alone. (((hugs))) & Peace
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((((Tracey)))) That for me is a perfect description of the disease "of compulsion". It knocks...you open the door...and then you close it. I don't have any power over the compulsion...I have power during the compulsion and thereafter. Nice post. (((hugs)))
Hey Tracey, Prayers sent! Just let this settle down and have a discussion with him. You are setting a great example for them with your sobriety. Just keep on keepin on give this to your HP! Tom
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I'm reminded here of what my Sponsor tells me, your biggest problem isn't yours today. Good to keep that in mind and perspective today. We all have our journey, sounds like your daugther is starting hers. Prayers out to you and her that the journey takes a Spiritual route at some point in the near future.
I had this dream a few nights ago about my daughter. I don't remember all of it, but I do remember waking up with the sense that her life was in turmoil somehow. Later that day, I get a phone call, she wants to talk. I know by the tone of her voice, something is wrong.
