Damn Tom, ... ... ... Now I'm going to laugh out loud every time we give out chips ... ... ... I will now have the thought of the giver of "CRUNCHY GOODNESS" ... LMFAO ... I can't stop laughing ... you old bugger you ... And to think I was enjoying the thought of getting a 'chip' ((((HUG)))) from Col ... You have turned my fantasy into the same reaction I get with a 'whoopie cushion' ...
Bad dog, baaaaaad dog, ... .... ...
-- Edited by Pythonpappy on Sunday 3rd of March 2013 10:34:58 PM
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'Those who leave everything in God's hand will eventually see God's hand in everything.'
One of the great gifts of sobriety for me is clarity. Clarity in regards to many things, but most profoundly in terms of recognizing character defects within myself and either accepting or working on changing these. I'm pretty honest with myself. Ok- I'm very selfish. I carry a lot of self- centered fear. I'm what people called a "reserved" person... Really quiet and standoffish until I feel comfortable... Which can take a while for me. I hate, hate, hate being the focal point of attention. It's amongst my worst nightmares. I'm sick of it. I'm literally sick and tired of being like this. So I need to work on changing this. I attended tonights business meeting at what was once my home group... I stopped going to this meeting for a few months because I didn't like 'the vibe' there. This 'vibe' was my own crazy head creating negativity out of nothing. I realize that I need to simply get over this imagined 'vibe' ( its actually considered the best women's meeting in the area), and also at 9 months sober I really should be taking on service positions. I realized this quite a while ago, actually but just wanted to do things MY way- really its just fear. So I wanted to be a 'greeter'- had my heart set on it...2 other women snagged that up before I could. Now I'm angry- the NERVE!! Then I quickly realize that both of these women are better suited for the job. FINE. So I raise my hand and just announce that I'm available to fill any position I may be qualified for given my length of sobriety ( praying it's not coffee haha after working in a diner 6 mornings a week at 5am I'm all set with making coffee LOL). So I'm the new 'chip girl'. Cool. The chip girl stands in the middle of this circular formation of women at the end of the meeting and-yup, you guessed it- hands out chips. My crazy head starts in about being put on the spot, everyone's looking at me!!! My most dreaded thing! I then realize (another realization..) that's THIS IS NOT ABOUT ME. Not at all- its about the women celebrating their less than 1 year sobriety. I get to be the one who gives them a smile and a hug... And THEIR moment of accomplishment. That's pretty cool:) AND I can finally just get over peeing my dress in front of Ms Angers class during my class presentation in the 1st grade hahaha. Seriously, Col- get over it:)
Thanks Col, Great share ... ... ... This shows a great deal of growth on your part ... just keep adding the water and fertilizer ... you'll be producing fruit before you know it ...
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'Those who leave everything in God's hand will eventually see God's hand in everything.'
Start making a production of it.... You know..."White chip!! International sign of surrender. Give up the fight pick up a white!" "Red chip 3 months sober nights and weekends included! Red Chip- no more red eyes!" "Blue chip! Half a cake! No more blue lights in your rearview mirror!"..."Purple chip - or Magenta if you prefer!!! 9 months! any takers!!!" If you are sober and you know it clap your hands!" Then skip all the way back to your seat.
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