http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qycqF1CWcXg Listen and read at the same time : )
What a blast - this has been. I think of the first days. The pain, the tears and crippling sobs that melded me to my pillow for hours. Slowly I lift my head from the pillow, and the sun begins to shine a new light. There are new places, new people, new pathways to get there. My feet begin to move. They rarely stop moving. People who were moving with me begin to stop along side the path, and I wave to Him inside of them as I go by.
My insides are beginning to bubble and move again. I'm running - and things are moving even faster by me... I'm just a small part of all of it. The road gets bigger and bigger and I keep turning corners and cutting others... I circle back and look at them. I see some faces standing there, and I wave at Him inside of them as I go by.
There is a seat for me here and there, and my heart rests calmly in the moment of joy. The gifts of my HP our poured out all around me from the spirits in the room and I bathe in the love. Refreshed and lighter, I'm back on the path, and I stop here often to see the same faces that I saw in the beginning, they are still here, and it brings me comfort. I bottle some of it up, put it in my back pocket and take to the path. I move to find those who find comfort that I am always there. I wave at Him inside of them as I go by.
My words change, and then my thoughts change. More is revealed, and I become less of myself, and more of the spirit inside me. My selfishness gets brighter, and I am allowed to see it and extinguish it little by little with the help of my family in recovery. I keep my feet on the path to His will, and I wave at Him inside of them as I go by.
-- Edited by justadrunk on Friday 1st of March 2013 08:35:50 PM
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Thanks for everything. Peace and Love on your journey.
I hear you, Tasha. No one ever said staying sober would be easy, but then again they never walked in our shoes either. There's always some unforeseen danger just waiting to trip us up. I guess it's just part of this thing we call sober grace. There does come a time, however, when we need to make changes; for yourself and our future. You have dear, and the rewards for doing so are now endless. I know that will continue.
For years I bounced from program to program trying to find some way to beat this dreaded disease, or at least find some much need clarity. All that struggling led me nowhere. The thoughts of what to do next always became my tripping up point. What followed was, of course, more of the same. I had to find a real connection somewhere before those uncomfortable feelings set in, again. That's why sober realtionships are so important: They quickly became my eyes, ears and voice of reason when I needed them the most. It was a game changer for me. I couldn't travel this road alone and what I quickly discovered was how important those sober relations actually were. They became a firm foundation for what I call 'lasting change'. After that, my life started to improve.And, of course, so has yours. I hope that change continues.
~God Bless~
-- Edited by Mr_David on Friday 1st of March 2013 11:50:50 PM
This is the type background music I prefer ... for the last few years, I've been turning on the 'den' stereo attached to the TV and satellite dish ... I tune the DirecTV to 'New Age' music and then go to work on the computer on the other side of the room ...
LMAO, I just, this very second, got what you meant by '2 tabs open' ... I love this video link you gave ... it's my kind of music ... AND with 2 tabs open, I can enjoy the music right out of my computer stereo setup while reading other stuff ... This REALLY IS great ... love it!!!
Thanks Sweetheart, Pappy
P.S. I can easily adjust volume now and have the ability to mute or pause this and go to video clips or whatever, this is gonna be great ... thanks again ...
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