I woke up to his mouning this morning, and looked for him as he wasn't laying by my feet where he was when I went to sleep last night.  He was on the floor and unable to move,  but trying hard to get up, unsucessfully.  I picked him up right away, and he just callapsed in my arms.  Went completely limp, head and all, eyes barely open.  I rushed him to the vets office... they are struggling to get his system stablized at this time, saying his glucous levels are low, his sugar level is low and his body temp is low. They are trying to pin point what brough this about after sending him home all chipper yesterday.  My heart is broke.  I do feel and am conceeding that I will likely have to have him put down.  If this happens again, so rapidly after they send him home, take him off IV's and stuff...  I hate saying this.. but I would rather send him back to the One who loaned him to me, than to keep him here going through this kind of suffering.  I want to believe it would be a mistake to give up, but I know it would be a bigger mistake not to be willing to let go.

God, I simply ask that when the time comes if my decision is to let him go, and return him to You is a day too soon... I ask for your forgiveness.  It's not what I want to do in my heart of hearts.  I love him deeply and thank You for allowing me to be a care taker in his life.  He was a care taker in my life at times too.  May Your Will be Done.

John