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Ask yourself: 

Have I ever been depressed when I was Not thinking about me?

 



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I think my answer to that is 'yes' also ... ... ... To me, 'depression' is when I fail to see a better future ... I certainly don't battle depression now like I used to when drinking, of course ... and I can get depressed when I see our country's leadership make really stupid choices ... 

For sure, I used to get depressed about my personal situation ... and when I looked at where I was, I'd get more depressed because I knew I was responsible for putting me there ... when I relied on alcohol, I became blind to the future, period, I could see no way out and could see no situation I would ever WANT to live for ... alcohol will do that for you ...

Today??? ... I know I possess a core set of values that I was taught in AA and that I can use those values to help others ... that gives me 'Hope' for the future of those who otherwise might not ever come to know life as I have come to know it ... I have been blessed ... and I must force myself to think of all the many things in my life today that I should be grateful for, rather than only look at the negative ...

The way I see it, looking only at the negative things going on in your life is simply giving up 'Hope' ... to do so is choosing to make yourself sick ... it really does boil down to how you 'think' ... which 'attitude' did you pull out of the closet this morning while you prepared for the day ???

 

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-- Edited by Pythonpappy on Tuesday 19th of February 2013 02:23:37 PM

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Yes...and the point is?  I'm listening really.  (((hugs))) smile



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Yes, Tasha. Of course when I was in the grips of alcoholic depression I had no conception of just how self absorbed I was. I don't know if this applies for true clinical depression, though. I was diagnosed with clinical depression as a teenager, but I think it was more situational depression, or a reaction to being in abusive situations. I have noticed that FOR ME (not applying this for anyone else) my deep depression was lifted when I became sober.

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This was the main point of the speaker tape I listened to last night. I was just throwing it out there... because I felt it was either genius, or totally crap lol. I don't know... I've been going back and forth all morning.

I had postpartum depression. I remember feeling overwhelmed by the demands and so many needs and crying and poop. I would just cry and cry and even be so angry that I ever had the baby! Then the guilt for feeling that way... and on and on and on it went until I finally drank because I of course am an alcoholic, and that's what I do to cope.

But as I recall all of this, I can't help but think that despite the circumstances, and even the obvious hormonal imbalance of it all... it was my mind thinking all about poor me... hmmm...

I'm not trying to say there is no such thing as depression. I'm not really sure if that was the point the speaker was trying to get across. He did say that the 12 steps were the solution... that Bill W suffered terribly from depression and ran around trying to help as many as he could because it was the only thing that kept him from it.... helping others... getting his mind off of himself.

Yet, I think about it, and in my depression, I was helping another human baby. Constantly! I couldn't NOT be resentful about the constant needs - and feel sorry that my own weren't being met.

If I have to spend ALL my time helping others to help myself get out of the grips of depression, it wouldn't seem very balanced. I would probably get resentful... but there again, that's just me thinking all about me.

I'm so confused!

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I will include a link to the speaker for those interested. It was Steve F - one alcoholic sharing with another - the 5th one down.

http://12stepme.org/resources.htm

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Depression is when you simply cannot see the future working out to your advantage ... you get trapped in your mind, your thinking gets mired down in a thick muddy rut ...

Change the WAY you THINK will, change your life ... ... ... Chemical imbalances may certainly play a role too ... BUT the mental process CAN overcome the physical, if you have faith ... but you must seek this power of prayer and of faith ... it doesn't just come to you like 'fairy dust' ... ... ...



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LOL! Thanks Tasha!!!! Yes...thinking about me...makes ME sick......but........when there are sad things in my life, really sad things...and I am sad...that AINT "depression"!!! THAT IS HEALTH!!!!!!! God and A.A. make me capable of FEELING, how I really feel.....about real things.............. Big Pharma has, sadly, sold us a line....that "sad" = BAD &/or "sick"......and thus requiring a pill......such (dangerous to drunks) NONSENSE!!! My fellowship has been hijacked by their whole "self-medicating" line.........as in...."You are innately sick....you are a drunk/addict because you have been "medicating yourself"...soooo now....let US medicate you...." I am not negating legitimate mental illness! But, at times, I feel like the only sober drunk, not taking anti-depressants.....It says , "Sought through prayer and MEDITATION"......NOT......"Sought through prayer and MEDI CA TION"!!!!! In the 80's, when I got sober....if you took pills...you were NOT sober....you were CHEATING....and NOW (God forbid)...there are people smoking weed and collecting chips.........Again....(with my closest relative, with a SERIOUS legitimate mental illness!!!) I do NOT (nor am I a doctor!!!!!!) negate LEGITIMATE mental illness....but JEEPERS....we Dont take pills for "anxiety"...we take STEPS for that!!!! Thanks for the soapbox LOL Love, Lady Eli

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Great tread for the Thinker- The Alcoholic.  I use to and still can over-think just about anything.   biggrin  It's usually when I'm trying to force my will into something.  But, the way I read this Tasha, was can I be depressed when not thinking about ME.  I guess the short answer is NO!  I can feel empathy and sympathy for things outside myself, but it's a short window.  To me, feeling depressed has a much longer tail and it always comes back to ME in some fashion.  It does involve our faulty negative thinking.  The diesase of misperception or delusion.  I was taught in AA that we have to act of way into good thinking!  Thinking our way into good acting doesn't work for us.  It surely didn't work for me.  The 12 Steps of continuous action changes the way we think.  We get a change in attitude & outlook, a new freedom and a new a happiness etc.......  We find a power outside of ourselves that we come to rely on and trust.  Continuous action (step 10-12) keeps us spiritual fit!  wink  Today, I have more gratitude for life than in the past.  It's hard to be grateful and depressed at the same time.  smile

 



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i battle depression. talking to others who battle it and are in recovery has had me come to the conclusion that it happens to me and there doesnt have to be any set, clear definite reason for it. what gets me through it is helping others( and not only alcoholics) and knowing this,too, shall pass. trudgin the road to happy destiny!

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justadrunk wrote:

Ask yourself: 

Have I ever been depressed when I was Not thinking about me?

 


 Great topic Tasha :)

Answer: only once about ten years ago when I gave up smoking. I went a bit cranky, mostly short tempered, and it went on for about three years. I didn't relate it to smoking at the time however, I thought I was on the wrong track spiritually. My doc diagnosed clinical depression, which I suppose was fair enough but when I look back I wasn't doing much to help others either. It cleared and I became much more active working with others. A year or two later I met an old AA buddy who had the same experience. She had also given up smoking and gone cranky for three years.

My conclusion was and is that there was much more to my smoking than mere chemicaL addiction. The experience was like going right back to step one and starting again. Smoking was my way of dealing with things, especially anger, and when I stopped, all hell let loose.

In early days, sitting around the rooms it was common to hear talk about being depressed. the conversation would go "how are you?>... oh I'm a bit depressed today". Sure we were feeling down and a bit anxious, but only to the extent that these feelings are characteristic of early sobriety. I called myself depressed but really it was a case of poor me.

Then, one day I met a AA friend who really suffered from depression. His illness made my "depression" look like a walk in the park I never suffered as he did. That's when I learned the difference between the common self pity and the much less common serious depressive illness.

Without a doubt my bouts of self pity stemmed from page 62, SELF CENTREDNESS... the root of all my problems.

Nowadays there seems to be a belief that we have a right to avoid such feelings through the use of "miracle" drugs, but in so doing we can also avoid emotional growth. I can't remember whether it was Freud, Jung, or someone else who once said " The refusal to suffer legitimate emotional pain  is the cause of much mental illness."

 

God bless,

MikeH.

 



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I am Bi-Polar. I have mood swings that bring me to suicidal thoughts and back around to roller coaster happy highs in a matter of weeks. My husband who is 38 is dying of congential heart failure, is now on kindey dialysis. He is having surgery today and if I was not on the drugs I currently take I would have lost my emotional well being and be in the mental ward. I have been in various mental wards many times because I stopped my meds.

I choose not to drink. I suffer legitimate emotional pain every day knowing he is going to die before me and I have no control over it. Drinking won't help the problem. Trust me, it would be much easier for me to just drink myself to death once he passes away than continue living without him. I know I could do it easily.

So to all of you that think medications are not being sober. LIVE in my world. You have no idea how many aa meetings I go to and want to just scream at people to shut up about their stupid petty problems. That is why I just shut up and say nothing all the time. No point in getting angry or causing a scene."Just shut up" I think to myself the anger/emotion will pass.

Medications I take do not make me high, or dull my senses, they correct the inbalance in my brain so I can stay stable and not become out of control from and an emotional stand point. I need to be rational and able to stay calm like normal people.

If you would like to read more about what it is like to be Bi-Polar "An Unquiet Mind" By Kay Redfield Jamison is an excellent book on the subject.

Just wanted to throw this out there to those that think they are alone in fighting both mental illness and alcoholism.

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I LOVE speaker tapes. Thanks for the recommendation!

I suffer depression. I'm medicated for it & when I'm on my meds & I'm usually on the beam. At least, it's much easier for me to be.

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