I had a few drinks.. I feel bad about it, but I live in an area were we have 10 or so friends in the area.. They are all planning a big New Years Eve Thing... It is gonna be very hard.. I don't want to drink.. Just in the short time I have not drank. I feel better and my thinking is more clear..I know I will continue to be strong. I appreciate all of you. Kep me in your thoughts and prayers.. I will be back... Hope to catch ya'll in chat one night......James
Pick yourself up, dust yourself off, refocus your eyes on the prize, and start walking back down that sobriety road with your AA friends. Never give up!
Many of us may have stumbled along the path, but the winners are the ones that get back up and keep on trying until they get it right.
Yep! The big day is coming. I will not be at my friend's annual New Year's party this year, I haven't missed one in 15 yrs, I've blacked out at few, but was told I was there.
My friend understands......she's a REAL friend.
Keep coming back, James.
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We're in a similar situation, I'm 35 and I've had 5 full sober days in a row now. My best friend/pot dealer was mad today when I told him I wasn't going out for new years eve. As a matter of fact when I told him the other day that I was done with drinking and smoking his only comment/question was, "so we're not going to be friends anymore?" I am very close with him and his wife as well as his entire extended family. I can honestly say none of them have ever seen me without a beer in my hand in the ten years we've been friends so he knows I'm an alcoholic. I don't know how it's all going to work out, but I do know I was mad when he said I should still go out even if I don't "want" to drink or smoke (as if I don't want to). Anyway, good luck and I hope to see you back here and on the wagon.
umm, toothpick? sorry, but that is not a true friend. Some people really are not serving our best interests, or their own. Some of us say that when we were actively using that we had associates, or drinking buddies,, but not friends,,, and now.. we are really trying to help each other and care about each other's well-being... we in AA are friends. We care about you both, and want you to be healthy, and so we don't want you to drink. but it is your decision. We turn our lives and wills over to a Higher Power who cares about us. You don't have to drink any more. but, unfortunately sometimes it does mean changing who we hang out with.
let's hope the New Year starts a new lifestyle, and brings those of us who have changed lifestyles even further down that road of recovery,
amanda
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I understand what you are saying. But let me add this: today he called inviting me over for dinner. I told him that I couldn't as I was going to a meeting tonight. I fully expected him to say, "what for, you can do it without meetings." But what he said shocked me.
He said, "good for you man. I'm proud of you. Call me when you get home and tell me how it went." He doesn't drink, just gets stoned. I told him thanks and that I really needed his support to do this and I never wanted to hear, see or smell him smoking pot around me. He said, "No problem bro, I'll do anything for you. If you need anything just let me know."
I think he just didn't believe that I was serious about this. I'm surprised myself so I can't really blame him. Like I said, I don't how everything is going to work out between us but I'm not going to blow him off unless I must to stay alive and sober.
