"I saw God" she said. "Oh really?" I said. "What did he look like?" "Spinning." she said. "Everything spinning."
My children, didn't know about any kind of God until recently, when we began saying the serenity prayer together in times of stress... times of growth, and the pain that sometimes is part of it. I have yet to figure out exactly how to talk to my children, now 3 & 6 about God, so I haven't.
I wondered at that time, how she (now 3 yrs old) thought she saw God. She's never been to sunday school. She's never been to church. We have no friends or family that believe in God or would have spoke to her about Him.
I wondered... but kids do just say things... I thought.
A few weeks have gone by.
This morning we are coloring together at the dining table, and the sun is pouring in on us. It's pleasant quiet time and I tell her the story of her birth. She loves that story. After re-telling it a few times, I can't think of any new twist, and although she is happy to just hear it over and over exactly the same, I tire of it finally, and tell her I will talk about it again tomorrow with her. She says "Okay. God loves me you know." I stop coloring and look at her sweet smile and big eyes excited to be telling me the truth.
"Oh he does?" I say. "How do you know that?" Since I have never told her anything like that, and I can't imagine who else would have... I'm pretty curious! "She told me when I was born. She whispered it to me." And then she showed me, by whispering those words into my ear, how she claimed God whispered to her.
I said - "How do you know it was God?" She said. "I don't know, it just was, and She loves everyone. She's everywhere... spinning." Then she got up and showed me with a whirl... hands in the air... and sat back down and finished coloring her flower.
-- Edited by justadrunk on Monday 4th of February 2013 11:05:35 AM
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Thanks for everything. Peace and Love on your journey.
You must write abook. I have been reading many books about recovery and by recovering people and their families. Your posts here would be such an inspiriation to others out there struggling, compiled into a book. You have touched my heart and soul with so many of your posts, and this one, yet again has done so. I really love your writing, your truths, and even though I don't know you except from this board, I love you.
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I asked God for all things that I may enjoy life. He gave me life so that I may enjoy all things.
Tasha! ... ... ... you may or may not have made the connection I just did ... ... ... and it was a STRONG overpowering moment for sure ... your daughter just quite accurately described 'Sarayu' from the book about the old shack ... (the conception of the 'Holy Spirit') ... especially the spinning 'sprites' representing the children ...
Wow ... I'm going to have to just sit and think about that for a few moments!!!!!!! ... Wow, wow, wow, wow ... ... ...
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'Those who leave everything in God's hand will eventually see God's hand in everything.'
Ahhh....Thank you so much! Having a difficult day, and came here to ask you all about Faith........and here is my answer, without having to even ask! Oh Justa! Thank you so much! Maybe your baby is just remembering!?!?!?!
I said - "How do you know it was God?" She said. "I don't know, it just was, and She loves everyone. She's everywhere... spinning." Then she got up and showed me with a whirl... hands in the air... and sat back down and finished coloring her flower.
That just about knocked me over...It definitely brought tears to my eyes...Because in that image....I saw God too. Thank you for that.