We needed to ask ourselves but one short question. "Do I now believe, or am I even willing to believe, that there is a Power greater than myself?" As soon as a man can say that he does believe, or is willing to believe, we emphatically assure him that he is on his way. Alcoholics Anonymous,p.47
I was always fascinated with the study of scientific principles. I was emotionally and physically distant from people while I pursued Absolute Knowledge. God and spirituality were meaningless academic exercises. I was a modern man of science, knowledge was my Higher Power. Given the right set of equations, life was merely another problem to solve. Yet my inner self was dying from my outer man's solution to life's problems and the solution was alcohol. In spite of my intelligence, alcohol became my Higher Power. It was through the unconditional love which emanates from A.A. people and meetings that I was able to discard alcohol as my Higher Power. The great void was filled. I was no longer lonely and apart from life. I had found a true power greater than myself. I had found God's love. There is only one equation which really matters to me now: God is in A.A. ----- from the book Daily Reflections
this post says 'exactly' what I was trying to convey in a different thread ... I have said 'Step 2' was my most difficult step, well, this post explains perfectly WHY that was, for me ...
It took years for me to understand my problem working the AA steps, and this is a great description of the 'why' for me ... Yeah, a big part of that was me lying to myself and/or just plain 'ole pretending to work the steps when I wasn't getting them at all ...
This is a great 'reflection' on a great 'truth' for me ...
Thank you so much, again, John Pappy
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'Those who leave everything in God's hand will eventually see God's hand in everything.'
