Hey folks, been awhile, hope all is well. Been busy over here, work, kids, trying to stay warm. Have had a few ups and downs but nothing I can't handle now a days. Mainly just a happy sober achololic. No drinks, well except for last night the dreaded happened. I was making my wife a cocktail, along with just my soda, and you prob guest it, I took a big ol sip of the wrong cup. I would never have thought that I off all people would have spit an acholic beverage across the room. I thought I was done, thought the taste would kill me, but the taste was so nasty I couldn't believe it. I lingered for a few minutes, but that was it, a second sip never even crossed my mind! Thanks to you all I was able to over come a simple mistake, that probally destroyed many. Have a great day!
And we have ceased fighting anything or anyone-even alcohol. For by this time sanity will have returned. We will seldom be interested in liquor. If tempted, we recoil from it as from a hot flame. We react sanely and normally, and we will find that this has happened automatically. We will see that our new attitude toward liquor has been given us without any thought or effort on our part. It just comes! That is the miracle of it. We are not fighting it, neither are we avoiding temptation. We feel as though we had been placed in a position of neutralitysafe and protected. We have not even sworn off. Instead, the problem has been removed. It does not exist for us. We are neither cocky nor are we afraid. That is how we react so long as we keep in fit spiritual condition. ... ... ... pg 84/85 BB
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I was at a bar last night (gasp - I know...a bar but us gay people do congregate there sometimes)...anyhow, I was looking at people sipping on these cocktails and my thought was "I'm kinda thirsty but if I wanted something to drink, why the hell would I drink something with nasty tasting crap in it that will just dehydrate me?" Then someone drinking some strange grapey vodka cocktail (that I would have found very tempting a few years ago) was standing before me talking and all I could think was how that drink smelled like rubbing alcohol and why would someone put something that could sterilize a wound in their stomach?
My thinking is different now though I know I cannot ever become complacent. I stay away from Chicken Marsala and Cherries Jubilee and stuff like that not cuz I fear it will make me relapse but alcohol really tastes bad. I had to train myself to drink. I don't doubt I would be "retrained" really fast (within an hour or two probably) but when I taste or even smell alcohol now, my instinct is to recoil (just like it states in the BB pretty much).
Glad your program is working!
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Keep coming back. It works if you work it. So work it. You're worth it!
I heard of an AA Christmas dinner once where someone accidentally brought rum balls and there was a whole lot of spitting out going on once people realized!
Whew! Flipper! You are a TRUE Miracle, and evidence of a Higher Power! Shouldn't we call Ripley's Believe it or NOT??? "Alcoholic Spits OUT Alcohol!" Rinse, rinse...oh honey RINSE!!!!!
