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Col


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As many of you know, I've recently gotten the ole ax from my job. Last Friday, actually. Prior to this, I had this very naive idea that now that I'm sober, all of my problems and ability to make very bad decisions would just STOP. I knew that there was a lot of work to be done in terms of the steps and establishing myself as a member of AA. I wasn't too focused on some things I maybe should've been outside of AA. I know that sounds strange.. What I mean is I was spending $ in an out of control manner. I was making 200$ a day, yet I'm broke- but I have more perfume, handbags, and clothes than I could use, never mind need. I was doing some straight up unethical things at work. Well, I've had a long week to rationally and logically ponder where I was at, why I was making these poor decisions, and what I can do NOW to change these things. Its been a very 'focus on the moment' kinda week. Though I initially freaked out and almost drank I think I've done a fairly decent job of handling the situation well. No phone calls to coworkers trying to gain sympathy and lie to them. No playing victim. No wallowing in self pity. Instead, I got my butt to a ton of meetings and reached out to people who needed it (without complaining about my own 'plight'). I accepted responsibility for my actions, and also accepted the consequences. I realized that I actually feel badly about the reasons I got fired. I stayed in very close contact with my HP, praying to get me through moments. I've been an adult about the whole thing. And I'm amazed!! Hahaha.. Somehow, somewhere within the past 7 months I've not only developed a conscience, but I've gained a bit of maturity (really just a little ha). I find myself grateful for this opportunity to be broke and focus on what's important in life. When did this happen? I don't even recognize myself! Lol

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Great Col - around 6 months I went through a shopping spree too. Almost like one last attempt to see if "stuff" could make me feel better, and finally I saw my own pile of crap literally and realized it couldn't and wouldn't, and God could if he were sought : ) Pretty cool - and I see the change in you too! Congrats!



-- Edited by justadrunk on Sunday 30th of December 2012 10:29:36 AM

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Hey Col, ...

I'm glad the change is happening for you, to you .... just remember:

Our whole attitude and outlook upon life will change. Fear of people and of economic insecurity will leave us. We will intuitively know how to handle situations which used to baffle us. We will suddenly realize that God is doing for us what we could not do for ourselves.
Are these extravagant promises? We think not. They are being fulfilled among us sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly. They will always materialize if we work for them.



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I've made a few bad decisions in sobriety too. Several. This just levels the playing field for us to learn from our mistakes and to be good people instead of the ones your momma warned you about :)

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Same here, Col...I've made some bad decisions and choices in sobriety as well. Sounds like you are doing the next right thing by admitting it and getting into service work. So you add it to your 4th, 8th step list and do a 9th and keep on keepin on. More will be revealed! You are becoming who you want to be...and maybe who HP wants you to be. Ain't it grand?
Amen on the promises, Pappy!

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Hi,
Something I read -----
Practice these principals ------
Progress not perfection -------
Practice may bring progress ----------
Nice

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Hi Col,

Yea it's not unusual for newly sober people to get wound up in other obsessions, I know I did. The important thing is to not drink and give ourseleves a chance to change. The "stuff" isn't who we are.

Anyway, I know you are a hard worker and pay your own bills, I have a lot of respect for that. Sounds like you are using the slow-down in a positive manner.

Pg 87 What used to be the hunch or the occasional inspiration gradually becomes a working part of the mind. Being still inexperienced and having just made conscious contact with God, it is not probable that we are going to be inspired at all times. We might pay for this presumption in all sorts of absurd actions and ideas. Nevertheless, we find that our thinking will, as time passes, be more and more on the plane of inspiration. We come to rely upon it.



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