Today is Christmas Eve. I want to wish all a Happy Day!
I woke with a little stress over how things were going to turn out today, I live in an area where I have not made any friends yet, my Christmas Dinner was cancelled because of the Flu.
So I am making this a good day, no matter what, I remember when I first got Sober, one of the things that was imprinted on my little brain was "You don't drink, No matter What"
I am using that same concept for today with staying in a Positive Space. Something like "Everything is o.k., life is good, and I'm having a good day", Really, what's the alternative - "I have No friends, my family is not around today and I am isolated" That just is not going to fly today. I'm going to a noon meeting, still looking for a Sponsee, and or Sponsor, or both, that has not happened yet.
I do have a neighbor, not in the program, that has asked me to help her on her new Computer, I can do that today, I have to laugh when I think of someone asking me to assist them on how their Computer Works, I don't know how MY Computer works, HaHa.
After the meeting I'm taking myself on a long walk, I am forturnate to be living in sunny California, and the Sun is very bright today. Things really change for the good when you stay out in the sun for a few hours, it alone changes prespectives.
Here's to Better days, right here in TODAY!
And here's to all of you that are enjoying a Winter Wonderland in the Snow.
Don't know if this made any sense, I just needed to check in today.
We are not alone. And there's not much happening here in SC, either. My family is scattered all over the south east and my son spends the holiday with his dad this year. This is my first Christmas sober and I find I am enjoying the peace and quiet. The AA clubhouse is open 24 hours this weekend and I will be heading that way in a bit. What better place to be today? I can't think of one.........
Happy Holidays to you all.
May love, peace, joy, serenity and sobriety be our gifts.
Love, Doll
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* We eventually realize that just as the pains of alcoholism had to come before sobriety, emotional turmoil comes before serenity. *
well.. sometimes it's 'the little things mean a lot' idea, and an attitude of gratitude for them.
Last year I was drinking on Christmas Eve day, and got all maudlin and miserable.. this year I am sober and things are alright.
Last year my appendix was making me sick,, and this year the little sucker is gone.
There are worse things than boring,,, we could be living in Baghdad or somewhere,, there are a lot of people who are in very bad situations right now,, and I am in a safe place.
I have enough to eat while many in the world do not.
I may be alone this year,, but I am not being beaten up or otherwise abused as in some years.
I just got back from church, and am grateful that I live in a country where I am not persecuted badly for my beliefs,,, even tho some people do rant,, at least I am not imprisoned or my house burned.
I can't afford to get presents for people,, but my gift is my Love that I am more able to give since being in recovery.
I am grateful that you guys are here, and for your presence, Toni, Rose, Phil, all the Mikes, Doll, and everyone. Thank you for your shares, and for listening to mine.
I am a grateful, recovering alcoholic, from an alcoholic family,
amanda
-- Edited by amanda2u2 at 18:24, 2005-12-24
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do your best and God does the rest, a step at a time
Have a very good holiday. We are spending a quiet nite here at home. My wifes uncle, aunt and cousins all have good jobs and make decent livings. We were invited, last week to a family dinner. We declined and asked not to be included in their gift exchange. We just don't have the extra funds to splurge with and I really care not to participate because of my faith.
I am free today!
I used to need to be extravigant and appear to be succesful. With people like you and the AA program, I have learned how to measure my success in the way I am, every day, with my family and folks with whom I cross paths.
For this and much more, I will always be grateful.
Take care, Toni. It is always good to see you participating, Chris B.
