Lots of learning going on through the crisis of my mom being in the hospital. I'm stronger than I think I am. I have friends in the fellowship who are here for me-I'm not alone. G-d is always here, I just need to slow down to notice him. I have major control issues and I have huge resentments towards other ppl in my life who also have them. My behavior can change a whole situation. Anticipating negative interactions just instigates negativity in me which I in turn project on everyone else. I'm unhappy in my job. Being away from work solidified how much stress it really causes me. The kids behave better when I am patient, loving, and present. Um, that's my list for now.
Love,
Chaya
