Learning to let go of the choices other people make takes away much of the angst we have grown accustomed to. Letting go of the outcome of all experiences, even those that involve us, frees our minds from the needless worry that keeps us stuck. The more we focus on a problem, our own or someone else's, the bigger it gets.
Why do we worry so much? For some of us, it has become a habit. Lucky for us, by sharing the Twelve Step journey we can learn how not to worry. The solution is to have faith that our Higher Power will take care of us. And the others in our lives have their Higher Power to care for them. Learning to give up our old ways of "doing" life unburdens us profoundly. The time we'll gain will allow us to do what we really need to do.
My perspective today will be healthy. I'll let go and let God.
Oh wow - I love this one, we were just talking about this last night - and I was amazed that of the 10 people sitting in that meeting, not a one seemed to grasp this at all! In fact, they seemed to be feeding off each others spinning minds! I was floored really, and I was sure I would feel out of place sharing these words above... but then, in a moment, I remembered to ask God for humility and empathy with a simple quick prayer. I realized my heart what beating hard and fast and everything - I WAS COMPLETELY WRAPPED UP IN TAKING THESE PEOPLE'S INVENTORY! I was sitting there just beaming - just couldn't wait for my turn so I could set all these people straight!!!! My ego had me believing I was God again, and that I was sooooooo awesome because I get it - and these other people with way more sobriety than me don't.
BANG - just like that, with a simple prayer - my heart beat slowed down, my body relaxed, and just in time for my turn, I felt God's love for me say "it's okay now, just share from your heart". So I didn't have to be Mrs. Know it all - or an egomaniac thanks to the God I understand. It was such an amazing experience, I will be forever grateful beyond words for my alcoholism that brought me to this program and finally - the relationship with my HP.
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Thanks for everything. Peace and Love on your journey.
Hey Tasha, ... You just shared what happen to me a few years back ... it seemed after some months in the program, I felt I had a better handle on the program than some of the older members ... BUT, I was in a panic or experiencing anxiety just before speaking ... it made me forget some of the points I wished to present and or gave me 'brain farts' and I'd forget totally what it was I was going to say ... sometimes I'd share and not even come close to what it was I'd intended to say ...
Then I began praying during the meeting, while someone else was sharing, I'd say a little prayer for the words out of my mouth to come from God's spirit, not me, when it was my time to speak ... I found it truly amazing how much at ease this would put me ... I still do this today ... no more clamming up or sounding like a crazy person ... Thanks for bringing this up ...
God Bless, Pappy
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'Those who leave everything in God's hand will eventually see God's hand in everything.'