I can understand your frustrations dear, with being busy and all. I have a tendency to skip a meeting or two from time to time, but I never go 'too' long without attending at least 'one' meeting. It's been the cornerstone of my recovery for over 11+ years now, so why change that.
I usually attend a least 5 meetings a week give or take. I would double up on meetings also if I had too, but that rarely happens. As long as you stay connected somehow-like you mentioned earlier- everything else will work itself out.
The steps are just as important, like Mike stated earlier. It's an integral part of recovery also besides attending meetings. It's through step work that 'we' come to believe. I'll just leave it at that. Enjoy your next meeting.
-- Edited by Mr_David on Saturday 17th of November 2012 01:39:10 AM
Since I wasn't able to get to meetings this week I worked really hard on keeping up with my readings and talking to my sponsor. Tonight I chose to miss my meetings I've attended the last three weeks to help out my mom. I'm paying for it now. I am so irritable I can't even stand me. The girls are driving me crazy and I have a terrible headache. I'm going to get to one in the morning for sure. I'm counting down the hours. This is miserable. Its like I can't stop this garbage coming out of my mouth and my mood is just awful. Grrrrr.
I hear ya! I keep track of meetings in my planner ( I don't 'check them off' til my butts in the seat)... Without fail if I've gone 2 or 3 days without a meeting I get... Easily agitated ( read downright bitchy). Hitting a meeting always puts my head back in order:)
Meetings helped me to keep sobriety real ... and at the time, sobriety came first above all else, cause without it, I turned into a Zombie and became 'useless' ... or worse, I turned into the Devil himself and nobody could stand me ...
Sobriety was, and is, my top priority ... I might as well be 'the Blob' from outer space without it ...
Sit back and have a cup of 'hot chocolate' (w/ marshmallows) and relax for a while ... the chocolate actually does some amazing things for the brain ...
Love Ya and God Bless, Pappy
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How are you going with the steps? Ive seen plenty of people get like this even with plenty of meetings. It's the old alcoholic mind at work and meetings don't treat that. Only the steps will get you connected to the power that can fix all that.
I hope you got to your meeting this morning! Meetings just seem to make sobriety easier. I agree with Mike though...meetings alone won't do it. I too have seen many an alkie miserable in a meeting. It's the steps that make the process that helps us to handle life on life's terms. When I find myself in a situation that is "driving me crazy" I have to realize that it's a mighty short trip and I can just as easily walk. Step one gets me back on track...I am powerless over the situation and my life becomes unmanageable because I obsess on the negative of the situation. I have to face me...and I'd rather be in a meeting full of friendly faces and good cheer than in whatever situation I am in. And if I'm not getting my way than maybe God is getting His, and I need to turn it over to the care of Him and ask myself "am I being of service to God?"How can I make it better? If we take it on through the steps, we feel better and more focused. Now, of course, it took me many years to figure this out...lol...so just keep practicing! It's all just good practice!
So glad to feel completely understood. No one except another REAL Alcoholic or druggie can.
It is that crazy alcoholic mind that gets you when you least expect it everytime. And for me, missing meetings just speeds up the process.
Today my mind has been all over the place. I've been attending another recovery program that is is religious based, because the spirituality part seemed to always be a stumbling block.
Need I tell you I'm almost insane again. I need to go back to AA where it all began. Love all you people in AA.
So glad to be at a meeting this morning. When I woke up, though, I thought to myself that I didn't want to go. What?! Am I nuts? Well, yes. I felt sorta weird and detached and had difficulty focusing in the meeting. It really showed me how much I need to be practicing my program daily. That one meeting this morning just isn't enough for me today. I still feel spread thin. I'm looking around the house at all to be done and I'm getting triggered by just about everything right now. It's weird...my house has not been comforting to me lately. It has a really bad feeling hanging over it. I don't know if it's my bad energy from that last binge. Perhaps. So, the plan for now is to curl up with the big book and relax while the girls play. Forget the laundry...it will be there later. I'm eager to start my stepwork as I am hoping that will help. I was at 4 in al anon. thanks everyone. Love, chaya
