I am so disgusted with myself. After 8 years of sobriety, I have relapsed and been heavily drinking for the past 2 months. My youngest son moving away triggered it. No excuse though. I need to stop. Just pulled out all my AA coins and some jewelry that I had engraved myself. Tonight is the last night of drinking for me. Keep me in your prayers as I travel this path again.
Welcome to MIP EmptyNest, ... Glad you found us ...
Thanks for coming back and expressing how good it ISN'T back out there ... I needed to hear that ... hearing some of your story is already helping us ... now we get to help you if you'll let us ... but you need to stay in frequent contact with us, cause if we've learned anything, we can't do this alone ...
Get back to your meetings ASAP and find a good sponsor to help get you on the right track ... the AA help line will give you the local area meeting schedule and someone to talk to if you need them tonight ... I'll see if I have a copy of their Internet address or someone here may post it before I can find it ... (I'm a little slow sometimes ... LOL)
Love You and God Bless, Pappy
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'Those who leave everything in God's hand will eventually see God's hand in everything.'
Welcome to MIP. Like Python said, best to get the # of the local AA central office, you can ask them for a contact before you go to the meeting or maybe have a lady pick you up for the meeting.
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Rob
"There ain't no Coupe DeVille hiding in the bottom of a Cracker Jack Box."
Relapse is never good but it happens,its not a shame the shame is not making it back....In prayer and support,you know the drill,tomorrow you will ask yourself what will I do differntly this time!!C you tomorrow,Just For That Day you do not have to drink alcohol!,,,,Thanks for shraing and reaching out ,its how WE get help!!
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Selfishness-self-centeredness! That, we think, is the root of our troubles.
Welcome Home! It's a great day to be sober! You were running a good race and you fell down, get back up and let's keep running it! Keep coming back and we'll help all we can. All ya gotta do is ask.
p.s....come all the way in and sit all the way down and enjoy the ride!
-- Edited by Picaposie on Friday 16th of November 2012 11:32:44 AM
Change is scary. There are all kinds of things to do with fear of change though. Of course if we are strayed too far from meetings and a program, the solutions won't hit us. Of course getting back involved in the program will be first priority. After that and after you get situation in your sobriety again, you can make choices about this next phase of your life. You can be a foster parent if you still feel like raising children is something you want to do. The world needs more foster parents. Trust me. Being highly involved in AA, service, and fellowship can also help...sponsoring other...all that can provide tremendous meaning in your life. So, you needed to be disgusted with yourself enough to make it back to meetings and the program. After that, you can stop the self deprecation and move foward.
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Keep coming back. It works if you work it. So work it. You're worth it!
Welcome home Emptynest...Though I've never "gone back out" physically I have mentally and emotionally. I've had great sponsorship and they taught me that each time I go back out I take the program with me...in other words I try to do what I use to do before and now with the program in its way. If your sobriety was solid before going back out it was probably a painful going back out..."in spite of". What you knew and did still works and the chemical has to be out of the way because the chemical is the controller. There are sponsors ready...you haven't met them yet however the consequence to asking is getting.
