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Chaya


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Today was harder than I thought. My brain really has done some kind of flip.  I could barely throw out what I had left in the house.  After 3 meetings today I still wanted to drink it.  I threw out the whole bottle of vermouth. Didn't bother pouring it out. I knew that if I unscrewed it I'd drink it. I don't know what in the world happened in the last few weeks but something just got switched. Today on the drive out to pick up my daughter I stated fascinating about other things to do besides alcohol, stuff I've never done or have really ever thought of.  I called a couple of the women cuz it freaked me out. This just isn't me.  It's so weird.  I was thinking of how angry I was when I poured out my mom's wine last year.  I was furious. I hated the corks, the bottles, the wine, the bottle opener.  I gave so much power to objects.  Today there was no hatred.  It was so different.  It was hard to part with. It was like throwing out something that I like.  I was regretting It before it even hit the bottom of the dumpster. Vermouth isn't even that great. I don't know what's going on with me.  I guess I really thought all along I would be the family exception-I could abuse alcohol without the obsession.  But here I am with just about one day complete. My daughter said she likes the new "charm" on my keychain. Chaya

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Fantastic Chaya, ... great start ... you can do it ... I know beyond any doubt, that if I can do it, certainly you can ... I was so far gone, it was a medical mystery that I recovered to where life has meaning now ...

One day at a time ... it gets easier ... keep going to meetings where you feel safe ... read the BB to know you're not alone ... we are going to walk this walk with you ...


Love Ya and God Bless,
Pappy



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It will get better,that is a promise. Follow suggestions,WE are here for each other.Keep coming back and let us know how you are doing! 



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Chaya,

Glad to hear you made it through the day, keep coming back it gets easier.

PS Hope you got rid of the axanax and any other mind alerting stuff!

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That's awesome Chaya. Keep that momentum going.



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Awesome, Chaya. Good for you. Hang in there and keep coming back to this board. It is so helpful in so many ways. At least, it has been for me.

-Adam



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Chaya

Day one for me , a bloke told me .

"IF You Are an alcoholic & you go & pick up A drink , ALL the things that happen to people

who go out to do 'more research' WILL Happen to You" he also added . "If you hang around

here long enough There is A Chance , Your life Will get better . On th flip side , as Mike said .

I Also Promise It Will get better for you , One Day at a Time . All Your needs will be met . A

lot of your 'wants' as well , mate I have 'kept coming back' for over 26yrs & if it was'nt any

good or it did not work I would have given it th flick straght away . Chaya , because I made a

decision 'to give this a go' the promises started to work for me in the 1st half hour .  YES , that

soon , th b/s in my head started to clear & my shoulders felt so light . I got 'greedy' straight away.

I wanted 'more of this' as my head had not been this clear since I was a kid . I got a good dose of

th 'ism's early , ok so I'm 26yrs older as well . Today I AM Comfortable in my own skin . Each night ,

I can Honestly say 'thank you God for a great day' and mean it . With a gratefull heart .



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@ 37 I was too young & good looking to be an alkie.

still too young , still got th good looks. still n alkie.
Chaya


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Day two. No cravings so I got to thinking during my al anon meeting tonight that I'm really ok. Not an alcoholic. Why do our brains do this? It's so messed up. Rick, I need to keep reading your post. I can't forget. 2 days and I'm ready to forget. I know that will only get me into trouble but those thoughts are just so convincing.
Chaya

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Chaya

I like to Remember what happened 3mths before that day .

I admitted myself to a Psych hospital , I talked my way in on Sat morning .

On Mon morning , I talked my way out . The Dr asked If th amount of alcohol I

drank might be th reason I was in there . If it was I will give it up .

An hour later I was having 'one for the road' , RIGHT Outside th gates of that

hospital . Now you know Why IT IS Important for ME to Remember . Because

that is how quick it was for me to forget how bad that week-end was .

I NEVER want to be like that again . Locked up in a psych ward .

It's only an arm length away , if I forget.



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Rick.

@ 37 I was too young & good looking to be an alkie.

still too young , still got th good looks. still n alkie.
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Boy is that ever true ZZ ...

All my old troubles are just an arm's length away ... thanks, I needed that ... puts everything in perspective, don't it ???



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Hang in there and keep coming back!

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