...from Lana dey Rey, who I understand is a pop star. Let's just say that I don't know much about pop music, I don't in fact know her music and I have no idea if she's in the Fellowship (and would of course not break her anonymity if I did)....but I do know *exactly* what she's saying:
"I was a big drinker at the time. I would drink every day. I would drink alone. I thought the whole concept was so [blanking] cool. A great deal of what I wrote on Born To Die is about these wilderness years. When I write about the thing that Ive lost I feel like Im writing about alcohol because that was the first love of my life. My parents were worried, I was worried. I knew it was a problem when I liked it more than I liked doing anything else. I was like, 'I'm [blanked]. I am totally [blanked]'. Like, at first it's fine and you think you have a dark side it's exciting and then you realise the dark side wins every time if you decide to indulge in it. It's also a completely different way of living when you know that...a different species of person. It was the worst thing that ever happened to me."
One thing I would differ on though -- it was, paradoxically. the best and worse thing that ever happened to me. The worst because of my own wilderness years and the toll they still take on those around me. The best, because without it, I would never have found AA
Amen Steve,thanks for that.I truly believe I am who I am today because of who I used to be. It was God's grace and mercy that allowed me that last choice to go on to the same,jails ,institutions,deriliction or death or find a new way to live. Blessed and always in gratitude and humility as I was given LIFE ,so many of my posse never got to encounter....
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Selfishness-self-centeredness! That, we think, is the root of our troubles.
Sometimes its great to just stand back and let someone else paint the picture for me having it come out just how it appeared before they picked up the colors. We are legend and need to stay in service to each other and those to come. (((hugs)))
