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On pg 88 BB I ask God every morning to help me be watchful of excitement. Excitement is a defect of character which leads me to being dishonest and looking for the old queer idea of fun I was addicted to...wanting attention and approval and going to places I really don't need to be.

Even happiness is a word I have to be careful of because it can include a connotation of excitement.

What I seek on a daily basis is the Joy of Liveing...working for God, not looking for things for myself.

Excitement was something that covered up my pain and denial. Recovery is hard work, there's gonna be pain, and as we work through the 12 steps as outlined in the Big Book of AA, the only place there is a set of directions in AA on how to recover, I start knowing God real slowly over time and that is the safety net I always needed to face my pain, walk through it, and recover.

Excitement is the reason I love coffee. I have to drink only a little bit or pretty soon I'm running around being dishonest. I can wake up with a hangover depending on how bad a beating I give myself...the calm, centered joy of living is much different.

But what about ME??? What do I get?? I LOVE excitement! Ain't I allowed any fun in recovery?

Well sure I am, but nothing changes if nothing changes...Step 12 when I get there gives me a feeling of usefulness and joy and true, real happiness I never felt before...having a set of directions to pass on to the new woman and seeing the light come into her eyes over time is an experience that must not be missed...doing this for the Higher Power gives me a feeling no drink, no guy, no outfit, no amount of attention or approval ever gave me.

So today I'll ask God to divorce me from self-seeking behaviors that lead to excitement...I don't want to be ending up in no more jams if I can help it.

God bless, enjoy your peaceful calm day today in God's physical world.



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Plus, this is just one persons opinion. It does not mean that it has to be my opinion or even my definition of excitement, happiness, joy etc. Even the dictionary's definition is just one persons definition -a chosen person to write it as best they can. That doesn't make it perfect or set in stone, there is still humannes.  Human interpretation and evolution that comes into play... change is inevitable.  It's a very useful tool - but not my higher power.

What odat see's as defects of character, are not automatically mine, and don't have to be yours either. We each have our own program, our own Higher power, and there is no right way or wrong way that works perfectly exactly as it does for someone else.

Odat is doing a wonderful job of sharing what is working for her TODAY. It might change tomorrow - that's why I keep coming back. It's in the realm of my definition of excitement too Vix, just as you said - watching people grown in this program to me is very exciting, and for ME - that's okay. I'm sober so far today too, and we're all in this together.




-- Edited by justadrunk on Tuesday 9th of October 2012 12:37:35 PM

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odat wrote:

Hi Vixen. Yes, excitement is different than happiness, joy or freedom. Whenever I question any word, I look it up.


 Took your suggestion, looked at a couple of dictionarys.  All seem to say the same thing.  Like most words, there can be  a positive and negative (depending on how you look at it)  meaning.   "Inspired"  is pretty close to how I feel, each morning, about life.   The synonyms I relate "Excited" to :

Amaze, arouse, awaken, delight, evoke, move, thrill..  

notice the antonyms below.   borecalmcomposedeaden, lullmoderate,pacifyquietrepresstranquilize    

Most of us would chose to check out early than to live a life defined by those terms.  lol

And I didn't see "dishonest" as a definition  in there either.   

To:

inspire; upset
Synonyms:

accelerateagitateamazeangeranimate,annoyarouseastoundawakenbotherchafe,delightdiscompose, disturb

electrify, elicit,energizeevokefeed the fire, firefluster,fomentgalvanizegoadinciteinduceinflame,infuriate, instigate

intensifyirritatejar, jolt,kindlemadden, mockmoveoffend,precipitateprovokequicken, rousestart,stimulatestir up, taunt,

 teasethrilltitillate,touch off, vexwake up, waken, warmwhet,work up, worry

Antonyms:borecalmcomposedeaden, lullmoderate,pacifyquietrepresstranquilize




-- Edited by StPeteDean on Tuesday 9th of October 2012 12:37:24 PM

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justadrunk wrote:


Odat is doing a wonderful job of sharing what is working for her TODAY. It might change tomorrow - that's why I keep coming back. It's in the realm of my definition of excitement too Vix, just as you said - watching people grown in this program to me is very exciting, and for ME - that's okay. I'm sober so far today too, and we're all in this together.



-- Edited by justadrunk on Tuesday 9th of October 2012 12:06:01 PM


 I heard something early on, pertaining to stuff you hear, that folks are doing in "their program", outside of "approved AA literature".   

"What keeps them sober, might get me drunk" biggrin

edit:   And visa Versa  smile



-- Edited by StPeteDean on Tuesday 9th of October 2012 03:12:23 PM

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Thanks so much Odat; your messages never fail to inspire me!

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I don't know if I completely understand this. I don't get how being excited to see someone or to do something fun would be a character defect. If I am to be happy, joyous and free, as I believe that is God's will for me, it seems reasonable to me that it is an exciting prospect, filled with moments worth looking forward to. I also get excited about the joy other people feel and experience. Maybe I am using the wrong word for what I feel? I will do some thinking on this.

God bless you as well, Odat.

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vixen wrote:

I don't know if I completely understand this. I don't get how being excited to see someone or to do something fun would be a character defect. If I am to be happy, joyous and free, as I believe that is God's will for me, it seems reasonable to me that it is an exciting prospect, filled with moments worth looking forward to. I also get excited about the joy other people feel and experience. Maybe I am using the wrong word for what I feel? I will do some thinking on this.

God bless you as well, Odat.


 I was thinking it was just a  poor choice of words.  Maybe odat is thinking of obsession.  I wake up genuinely excited about life and it's possibilities every day.  



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Hi Vixen. Yes, excitement is different than happiness, joy or freedom. Whenever I question any word, I look it up.



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Thanks Dean, very much appreciated.

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getting Aussie dictionary outconfuse 

This IS what I love about 'our' programme . It is 'our' .

Not mine , not yours , not something that was written in 1935 .

It is a 'guide' for Me to Live sober today , that's where I see "WE".

I can't , WE can , I alone Have to , I don't have to do It alone . So

many variables for me to work my programme .

I went to a meeting in Melbourne, Aussie . They changed their banner.

"Having had a spiritual awakening as a result of the result of these steps".

I looked at it for awhile , knowing something was different , but what .

Then I worked it out "of the result" , I thought ummm that could be better

for most people , it sounded right . I see my 'spiritual experience' from

step one , through 12 , not each individual step .

And yes I'm excited , I have an excitement for My future .

Today I HAVE a Future.

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Thanks for the input, you guys! It helps me to hear how others have thought on this topic. I think it is the choice of words that confused me. I believe healthy excitement has a place in my life...thank God! Obsession I will have to pass on though...not good for alcoholics like me. ;)

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Great message Susan. Keep that momentum going.



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Thanks Susan. Well put. I really don't think about excitement that much, I think I bundled it with being "emotional" which I really try to avoid.

With the excitement and emotions come expectations and projecting all of which I work to avoid.

I like to stay upbeat and enthusiastic I when doing presentations for work etc because I need to get others excited pumped up about a product etc. Have to keep the right perspective in your head.

Definitely never get excited about anything that's not capable of getting excited about you!!

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Good posts you guys...yeah, the emotionally unstable psychopath...*shivers* I hate to think of myself that way but it's part of this disease (another good word to look up!) And the page 52 character defects, no control over my emotional nature...it turns into the Step 9 promises. WoW! All within 30 something pages of action?? How simple...but not easy to resist temptation from things that excite :)

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Try not to beat yourself up, enough of that already.



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