I'm doing step 8.
Before this program, I wanted to bleach my insides. I wanted to Lysol my soul. I wanted to peroxide my brain.
After going through some of the steps, I feel my mind and body have been dipped in a bubble bath.
And maybe you're right... I did need quite a bit of "brain washing".
I'm glad you're here. And I hope to see fewer ODs and more AAs.
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In the end, everything will be alright. If it is not alright, it is not the end... Paulo coelho (also marigold hotel)
My sponsor kept reminding me ... 'total honesty' here ... he knew, that I knew, the 9th step came next by the way I suddenly got 'wishy-washy' ... he could see that I was already getting paranoid of making amends to those I'd not seen in years ... He reminded me to just simply get everybody down on paper ... He said we'll deal with the next step when the time comes and that he'd help me structure my amends method with each and every case ...
This is where a good sponsor is so helpful ... some of us have tried to jump ahead to the step 9 process and try to make amends without the right finesse, and really make a mess of things ... I'm just sayin', don't work your amends process without discussing each case individually with your sponsor first ... believe me, there is a 'right way' and a 'wrong way' ...
We need to hear from some others .... cause I am not sure I said what I meant to say ... yeah, I know, but it's late and I'm getting old ... LOL
Love Ya, Pappy
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'Those who leave everything in God's hand will eventually see God's hand in everything.'
Ive seen a positive mental change in myself. When I first came in I had a mind that was such a mess I wasnt even stable. Stick with the program, cause if I can find sanity anyone can. Ive been to every psych office imaginable in the last number of years and working this program has helped me recover my right mind. Scooping out your brain is a good way to put it, I had so much mental trash in my head from alcohol I didnt think Id ever be the same again, but Im at 9 months sober now and Im seeing it like my old self. Stay with it. Good luck.
Brain washing, yikes. I'd rather not. I'm not bleaching my insides either. I have internal cleansers for that. Talk about some **it. Speaking of which, I know a thing or two about 'stinkin thinking' -no comments Pappy, but as far as perxiode is concerened, I'll use that to dye my hair. Wait, I have none. You see, I am getting smarter. Okay Pappy, I set myself up for that one. Have a great day everyone.
I know a thing or two about 'stinkin thinking' -no comments Pappy, but as far as perxiode is concerened, I'll use that to dye my hair. Wait, I have none.You see, I am getting smarter. Okay Pappy, I set myself up for that one. Have a great day everyone.
aaaaw David, you knew I couldn't keep from commenting here ... you set the trap and I bit ... LOL
Of course it takes a 'stinkin thinker' to know one ... ... ... I'm not too proud of that but it is what it is ... ya know, I don't do too much 'stinkin thinkin' anymore, but I do get a lot of 'brain farts' ... How 'bout you Mr David? you have to turn the fan 'on' yet ??? ... ... ...
You have no Hair? ... ... ooow, I'm just glad Mr Happy is getting his back ... the itching this past few months was embarassing ... at least he ain't bald no more ... and as for my head, I've got good genes here, full hair and still all dark ... well, except for my beard ... I kinda look like a raccoon ... I've always heard that bald men were smarter cause their heads just pushed on up through all that hair ... that or the brain just got so big their wasn't any room left for hair ... I ain't buyin' it ...
Pappy
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'Those who leave everything in God's hand will eventually see God's hand in everything.'