I keep having relapse dreams. They feel so real and I can't stand them! I write them down, talk about them a little but they keep coming back. Anyone else experience this?
In college I took an abnormal psychology class (as if I needed a class when I could just look in the mirror lol). I remember reading about dreams, and dream analysis - specifically about dreams being important for the brain to "complete" order from chaos in life.
Then - I tried to understand things that are not understandable.
Now - I just leave it to God.
So glad you're here : ) I'm a Mom too, and I can actually say I'm a proud Mom and mean it these days! So much better than being a drunk Mom. Love AA - and sobriety!
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Thanks for everything. Peace and Love on your journey.
Oh yeah, ... early sobriety was filled with them ... my sponsor told me that dreams are simply 'thoughts' ... nothin' happens unless you act on them ...
Ya see? ... it takes time for your subconscious mind to be re-trained to your new way of thinking and living ... it does come, but it takes time ... then they will get fewer and fewer apart ...
Love Ya, Pappy
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'Those who leave everything in God's hand will eventually see God's hand in everything.'
I think it could be our reaction to relating to what someone (or we) said in a meeting playing back in our subconscious. I had one real repetitive one where I'd tell myself in my sleep that I didn't relapse and this voice would say 'but you cheated and drank one day'. I had been dishonest for so long in my life that I still doubt myself sometimes. It's a painful reminder that I'm still an alcoholic no mater how long I'm sober.
I had relapse dreams a lot more often in my first few months, but now I (occasionally) just have dreams where people spike my soda/water/whatever, and I always wake up livid. Not sure what the meaning is but I'm glad it's just in my dream and not in my waking life.
In college I took an abnormal psychology class (as if I needed a class when I could just look in the mirror lol). I remember reading about dreams, and dream analysis - specifically about dreams being important for the brain to "complete" order from chaos in life.
Then - I tried to understand things that are not understandable.
Now - I just leave it to God.
So glad you're here : ) I'm a Mom too, and I can actually say I'm a proud Mom and mean it these days! So much better than being a drunk Mom. Love AA - and sobriety!
That, I didn't know. Thanks Tasha. Hang in there I'mJustSayin, it will eventually get better -we promise.
Yes, I've had them and continue to have them. My Sponsor tells me: enjoy them, it's the only way you can drink in safety. But, if you think you can drink, you're dreaming.
yes, those drinking dreams.... i have them, still. i wake up panicked, but then realize it was an unpleasant dream, and then give thanks and am so grateful "it was just a dream". but i do remember in my dreams i think about losing my sobriety time and i don't want to lose it, i even think about having to tell my home group. it is half resolved before i even wake up! Such relief!! we are such complicated beings and alcoholics are at the top of that list. jj/sheila
Sometimes I wake up angry that I woke up cause in my dream I was having a blast. But, sometimes I wake up so angry and scared. At least, I can say I am dreaming. There was a 6 year period where I don't remember a single dream. =)
Feeling better than I ever have and sooo glad to know that I am not the only one with Relapse Dreams. Vowing to get up and speak more at meetings so, I will probably hear a few more stories.
