Well everyone, I made it one week! Congrats to myself! my withdraws are becoming better, which I'm handling pretty well, been eating more than ever, fruits and Vegs. breakfast mostly cause I would be hangover to eat! My sleeping is a major improvement, first cuople of days was tough, but now I can lay down, block everything out of my mind and fall asleep!I just think of good things in my past as a child and the good I have done in life, it helps!
I always drank after work, so I never could go anywhere outside the home, may be a drunk, but I'm not stupid to drink and Drive, But it was nice to get out of the house for once, you see things differently when your Sober, I majorly blocked out my Kids and wife from what they should have been getting all along, a father and husband! I had made Amends with them and we talked about how good things are about to take place, we are now on the same page, and things are so much better!
I know this is just one week, and there are so many other things still in the hat that needs to be taking care of in my life, but one step at a time, personaly, I like the pace I'm going so far, its working and I'm just gonna keep moving the way its taking me, I feel like I have something to prove to everyone here, I dont want to let ya down! What ever my beliefs are, we are all in this together, we are here to help each other out to Quit Drinking and get our lifes on track!
Living amends and holding yourself accountable for YOU! CONGRATS again - glad you're enjoying your weekend, and thanks for the well wishes for mine - just what I needed to hear : )
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Thanks for everything. Peace and Love on your journey.
Paul you are realizing that it's easy to stay sober as long as you don't have that first drink? That's the one that gets you drunk, not the 4,8, or 12 one. One day at a time, just don't pick up that first one.
Beautiful,,carry that message..........Lost dreams begin to awaken and new possibilities arise, Just For Today YOU NEVER HAVE TO USE ALCOHOL AGAIN .....
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Selfishness-self-centeredness! That, we think, is the root of our troubles.
Aloha Paul and yes that is what being alcohol free feels like...The body is always in a state of healing so when You stop poisoning it the reward will be that it will treat you nicely...kinda sorta a tit for tat dealy.
you said, "I feel like I have something to prove to everyone here, I dont want to let ya down! What ever my beliefs are, we are all in this together, we are here to help each other out to Quit Drinking and get our lifes on track!"...You may feel that you have something to prove and the person who needs the proof is yourself. This is a self-ish program and a "Me" program done in the Experience, Strength and Hope of the many others who come before us and are willing to expose to us how they came to do it. If you don't get and stay sober we much continue in our own sober journeys. I read your earlier posts about "doing it on my own" How ever you chose to do it...Just Do It because you want to and need to. You are the one you will hold responsible. Congradulations on this day being alcohol free.
@-yaho, my wife is being my personal sponser at the moment, and she's doing a great job, we are a great team, we are following the step's a day at a time, skipping step's, going over things at our own pace, its great! My wife never drank, her family has had drinking problems and have helped others with it, worse case's then mine, all together it all works out, and plus I have this site to share it with, if you or anyone need to rant or needs someone to talk too, I'm open ears! Welcome to the site!
her family has had drinking problems and have helped others with it, worse case's then mine,
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not really "worse cases" just further progressed. typically those "worse cases" or more progressed have a greater chance for recovery because there is less chance for denial.
Be careful of this line of thinking as it often leads to "my drinking was not that bad, I'm not as sick as these other folks". It's happened to a lot of us and substantially prolonged our
drinking and subsequent recovery. We pretty much need to get to a place where we accept that we have an incurable allergy and we just can't drink again, period. We can look at
those less fortunate, more advanced (progressed) alcoholics, in and out of recovery, be grateful ("but for the grace of God go I") and indentify that this is what lies ahead for us IF
we decide to pick up another drink. This period of sobriety (any period) is a gift, and there are no guarantees that we will make it back if we pick up another drink. Paul, I know that
it is easy for you to disregard the comments that I'm making here in your thread, and totally understand why. It's very nice (and fortunate) to be in your position (high bottom drunk)
in a relationship, home, and stable financial situation. I was one of those, and so were several on this board. It's also, believe it or not, a more challenging position to get sober from.
A lot of positive distractions and room for our disease to tell us that we don't have a problem. On the flip side the stakes are much higher as we have some much more to lose vs.
those who have lost most or all already. Not trying to bring you down jinx your sobriety, just saying that in a few decades of observation, high bottom trail blazers usually have to go
out, drink more, lose more, before they "get it". I'm saying this from experience. I attended meetings sporatically and avoided sponsors and working the steps for a couple years and
never made it past 60 days sober. And I was at least attending meetings. Hey but I was 27, married, great job, nice home... 2 years later it was just me looking for a job and
worried how to pay child support and keep from getting a DUI/ losing my DL. That's when I got serious and cut my losses. Good luck, I hope you beat the odds.
her family has had drinking problems and have helped others with it, worse case's then mine,
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not really "worse cases" just further progressed. typically those "worse cases" or more progressed have a greater chance for recovery because there is less chance for denial.
Be careful of this line of thinking as it often leads to "my drinking was not that bad, I'm not as sick as these other folks". It's happened to a lot of us and substantially prolonged our
drinking and subsequent recovery. We pretty much need to get to a place where we accept that we have an incurable allergy and we just can't drink again, period. We can look at
those less fortunate, more advanced (progressed) alcoholics, in and out of recovery, be grateful ("but for the grace of God go I") and indentify that this is what lies ahead for us IF
we decide to pick up another drink. This period of sobriety (any period) is a gift, and there are no guarantees that we will make it back if we pick up another drink. Paul, I know that
it is easy for you to disregard the comments that I'm making here in your thread, and totally understand why. It's very nice (and fortunate) to be in your position (high bottom drunk)
in a relationship, home, and stable financial situation. I was one of those, and so were several on this board. It's also, believe it or not, a more challenging position to get sober from.
A lot of positive distractions and room for our disease to tell us that we don't have a problem. On the flip side the stakes are much higher as we have some much more to lose vs.
those who have lost most or all already. Not trying to bring you down jinx your sobriety, just saying that in a few decades of observation, high bottom trail blazers usually have to go
out, drink more, lose more, before they "get it". I'm saying this from experience. I attended meetings sporatically and avoided sponsors and working the steps for a couple years and
never made it past 60 days sober. And I was at least attending meetings. Hey but I was 27, married, great job, nice home... 2 years later it was just me looking for a job and
worried how to pay child support and keep from getting a DUI/ losing my DL. That's when I got serious and cut my losses. Good luck, I hope you beat the odds.
I'm 42, what are the odds now, 50 and dead, no thanks!
You somehow said everything I wanted to share but couldn't find the words ... Hey Paul, Dean just shared my story almost exactly as it happened ... I was a high bottom drunk when I 1st tried to get and stay sober ... I got a month or two here and there, even managed 8 months once, but kept going out and reaching a lower bottom every time ...
Finally, I reached a new low and couldn't deny that I had a serious problem anymore ... To continue to drink for me meant certain death and it wasn't going to be long in coming ... I spent a long time, years, trying to prove to others that I knew the best way to get well ... when that didn't work, I finally started listening to the AA pros ... ... ... Only then, did I start to recover from my disease ... ... ...
You are one of the few ... one of the fortunate ones to learn that AA and it's complete program of recovery not only can, but WILL, assist you in the recovery not only from alcohol, but from life's realities ... ... ...
If nothing else, we'll make you feel like a total idiot if you should drink again ... We do well in taking ALL the fun out of drinking ... cause for us? ... to drink is to die ...
God Bless, Pappy
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'Those who leave everything in God's hand will eventually see God's hand in everything.'
so your sponsor is not an alcoholic? let me know how that works out.
Just told ya, been great! Listen guys, drinking will not be a easy walk in the park, I know this, everyone is different and not the same, yes my wife drank before, lol! She quit cold turkey for 17yrs now, and yes without help, maybe I should say instead of worse case than mine, it didnt get to that point where I lost everything, drink hard stuff from morining to nite, sleeping in the streets with nothing but the clothes on my back, no family to help anymore, no friends, an outcast in life to everyone, a bum! So yeah, there is people going through alot worse than I'am, I see it everyday! Maybe just coming easy for me to quit, maybe not, guess time will tell, I will be here everyday to let everyone know how I'm doing, guesss what Day 9........
Hey Paul, no one is challenging you. You may have great success doing it your way and we sincerely hope you do. Just because I needed help doesn't mean I wish that for you. It's been 23 wonderful years for me, as I was all done at 29. I hope that you at least double that amount in quality sober time.
I started out just challenging myself and trying to prove everyone wrong, because I didn't know any better. I didn't find a HP the day I walked in. It took a while... a few weeks to even be open to it - I needed to talk to a lot of people with this disease... just to realize it is a disease. I met them in the rooms of AA, and here at MIP. After I became willing to have an open mind, do the steps and work with a sponsor, I could start weaving the principles into my life, and let God's will be done. Now I don't need to be in charge anymore, although I still think I can be sometimes. That's when I head out for a meeting and get in touch with my HP.
I'm not worried about you Paul, and I'm not trying to make you worried about you either. God can have all of that so we can heal : )
Congrats on 9 days! Getting close to 2 weeks! I hope you go to a meeting to get a 30 day chip! That's a great feeling!
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Thanks for everything. Peace and Love on your journey.
welcome, and good luck with your sobriety. nothing ever worked for me until i found the rooms of AA, and believe me, i tried everything. maybe you will be the first exception i've ever heard of. congrats on 9 days.
Thanks everyone, and thanks billyjack, nope I'm whistling in the light now, I'm 9 Days Sober! And back to work in the morning, its been a great weekend!
