Mich here... Just wanted to say thanks to all again for helping me thru that one. While I waited to check in again I managed to busy myself with cleaning the entire downstairs of my house. Keeping busy sure helped to clear my mind. Thanks Tanin, I am not sure if all that is good, but it made me lol. Ha. Complex, yes. It is sometimes funny when you return to a thought later and hear a few other perspectives on it how it seems so eensy weensy. Oh no I was myself!!!!!! How horrible!!!! Ha. Do not over think things. I have no control over it except what Tasha said. Maybe just say something tomorrow, but worrying about it today will not solve anything. Ok all systems have returned from panic level. I can now return to the present and focus on being productive. Dude... deep breath.
haha - yes - i was waiting for this post - I do this all the time. All systems in check, and then you look back at the craziness and laugh at yourself - feels good doesn't it? Sobriety rocks!
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Thanks for everything. Peace and Love on your journey.
I do the same thing often! Like " ok, col, back to sanity- you're ok, the worlds still turning" haha. The best gift of sobriety, for me, is the ability to logically evaluate myself and my perceptions...as well as the ability to really laugh at oneself:) its the only thing that has kept me sane- laughter.
Look at it like this Mich....At least you didn't tell him the difference between a porcupine and Porshe joke.....You can always save that one for later. LOL
Yes, we do have a tendency to blow things out of proportion. Small problem stay in our head, we over think them, they become big until we let them out and turn them over. Then looking back it's like- I worried about that? It's like devising a plan to polevault over fly sh*t sometimes when all you need to do is step over/around it. Glad to see you're back in a Spritual space.
Mike B. Oh man I almost wet my pants on that one. LOL!!! This site is great. I needed that. Looking even further back on it after a busy day it seems insignificant. I am no longer worried. I prayed and kept busy. I do have to be honest though. I had a significant thought today that I have not had since I stopped drinking. Habits die hard. Going to the shore so I go seltzer. I had a fleeting thought. Yey vodka would go really great with that. Holy crap! I answered that out loud in the grocery store. You are crazy. wtf. You're nuts. Then kept going and forgot about it. I don't want a drink but it is amazing how the brain just throws that right in there. wow
haha - yes - i was waiting for this post - I do this all the time. All systems in check, and then you look back at the craziness and laugh at yourself - feels good doesn't it? Sobriety rocks!
Amen Tasha. We're glad you made it through, Mich. Sobriety does indeed rock...
-- Edited by Mr_David on Friday 17th of August 2012 01:01:50 AM
Happened to me tonight after my eye doctor appt in Target. My favorite wine was on sale, and as I went to check out the couple things I picked up in the store - there it was as the eye grabber as you enter the check out line. I thought about it pretty extensively - and normally I would be really disappointed, but tonight I was a little more sensible finally. It's a disease - it's never going to go away - the thoughts of drinking will always try and tantalize me - forever - my disease is doing push ups waiting for me at all times...
I thought about it - thought it through - remembered the fight - me against me, that alcohol brings to my life. I remembered the first few moments of bliss, and the fight to maintain that momentary feeling, never to be achieved, only to kill a little bit more of me with each glass, until I pass out and some day die. It's just not worth it. I wanna live. I wanna see my kids get married. I want to travel. It's just not worth it.
And then on my way home - had to start over as I saw a crowd of people laughing in the parking lot of the bar (I never even went to the bar).
Two hits in 10 minutes, but I'm fighting back now, and I have a fighting chance with the tools I've gotten from AA.
Love & Hugs Kathy : )
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