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AdamMoz


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Hi everyone. My name is Adam and I am an alcoholic. 

I am new to this message board but wanted to introduce myself. Unlike a lot of my friends, I didn't touch a drop of booze until my first semester of college. As a kid I was warned by my mom that my biological father - they had been divorced since I was two - was an abusive alcoholic and that I should never touch it. Throughout middle school and high school I remained completely straight-edge and couldn't fathom a day when I would ever drink. After all, it had broken up my parents' marriage and effectively traumatized my mother for life. 

I often feel like the day I started drinking I was hooked. I was in a friend's dorm room in college drinking Mike's Hard Lemonade and after four decided to take a walk to the bathroom. While in there I remember feeling "bouncy" and wondered to myself... what could be the harm in feeling like this every day?

Ten years, a DUI, and countless blackouts later, I know the answer to the question. I've in the past few months come to the conclusion that getting drunk everyday is a guaranteed way to mess up my body, keep my mind forever entrenched in guilt and hazy memories, and give me a place to escape from solving real life problems and actively taking steps toward succeeding in the things I'm passionate about. 

I am turning 30 this year and felt as though the best thing I could do for myself was get sober and put an end to the cycle of blacking out, waking up feeling horrible, and trying to crawl through the day until it was time to start drinking again. That is, for lack of a better word, hell. I have been off and on sober for the past 6 months (mostly on, but with a few bumps) but have committed now to getting help from others. I'm realizing that I cannot do this on my own and have sought out the assistance of one of my best friends (who is in recovery). I'm going to meetings and I'm talking to my family members about the very real implications of my own father's addiction. 

In essence, I'm ready to stop. 

Thank you all for reading. This seems like an amazing community full of supportive people. I look forward to getting to know you all better.

Sincerely,

Adam



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Welcome Adam.

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AdamMoz wrote:

I often feel like the day I started drinking I was hooked.

 Welcome Adam...I can so relate to this...I also have alcoholism in my family...Some worse than others..I even have one no longer with us....I took to it like a duck to water....Good for you for getting a handle on it at the age of 30...Because I can promise you if you want to continue...It won't get better....I found that out the hard way. Glad you are here and look forward to sharing your journey with you...Life without alcohol...Is amazing!



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Welcome.

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Welcome Adam! I made it to 4 months once with no meetings then relapsed hard. It was only in AA that I could really make lasting change. The "implications of your father's addiction" are kind of pointless. All that really matters is YOUR addiction. Pretty much all of us inherited alcholism through family lines somewhere though that is only part of how and why it developed.

If I just thought "Oh this is just a medical disease I got from my family" then I wouldn't have been able to recover spiritually and emotionally as much as I have. Furthermore, the amends I later needed to make would have been hollow cuz nothing would have been my fault.

Either way, your post was poignaint and you have tons of insight for a person just coming into AA. Stay willing and open minded!

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I agree with that pinkchip....For myself....I believe I was born with the allergy...The wreckage I left behind was all mine...I took full resposibility for that.

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Welcome Adam,you are on the road to making a most important decision in your life.C'mon in from the storm,WE are here for each  other!! smile



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mikef wrote:

Welcome Adam,you are on the road to making a most important decision in your life. C'mon in from the storm,WE are here for each  other!! smile

 This made me really happy. As did the rest of the words of encouragement. Thank you all :)

Sincerely,

Adam



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Hi Adam, 

Welcome to "MIP". I've been there myself, numerous times. So I know how discouraging you may feel. The truth is, I'm happier today then I've ever been before, and this program of recovery has a lot to do with that. I had two choices really; either I continue on being miserable or give recovery a try. I tried the later -thank God, and the rest has been a blessing in disguise from day one. So don't give up hope, not just yet. There's always some wiggle room for change. I wish you the best on your sober journey -as always, and remember; there's still hope, even for you. 



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Welcome Adam. Reading, posting and learning on this site is a good suppliment in between meeting.



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Welcome Adam, ... ... ...

Glad you made it here ... there's a lot of good recovery here on this forum ... hope you'll stay a while and let our love of sobriety come smack you up side the head ...

Love Ya and God Bless,
Pappy



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Pappy wrote: ..."hope you'll stay a while and let our love of sobriety come smack you up side the head ... " Now if that's not a warm welcome, I don't know what is. Haha!!!! Welcome Adam. From your post you sound like a smart young man with his whole sober life ahead of him. Looking forward to getting to know you. Peace

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Welcome : )

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Thanks for everything.  Peace and Love on your journey.  
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Hi Adam -- welcome! Can relate to your story in a big way. Thanks for being here.

Steve

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