I left rehab after 4 and a half months to be in a relationship that never worked, i drank again but quickly realised its not what i wanted, so got myself back to meetings 2 weeks ago, im doing at least 1 a day and sharing loads but cant seem to feel happy at all, my emotions are everywhere and i feel i cant have a deep conversation with anyone, i know i cant carry on like this or i will drink again, that is the last thing i want to do but feel im still living in the illness, any suggestions
You've learned an important lesson not drinking and going to meeting is not enough, find a sponsor, read the first 164 pages of the big book and work the program. Beyond that be patient only 2 weeks after a relapse you are likely still detoxing the rollercoaster will stop trust me. please don't give up before the miracle happens
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Obsession with self in these matters is a dead end; attention to God leads us out into the open, into a spacious, free life. Romans 8:6 , The Message
Yeah...It's a 12 step program....Get a sponsor to take you through them....Stay in meetings and out of relationships...At least for awhile.....You have to take care of yourself before you start taking care of someone else....You have good support here...Use it....And get into action....It's all about action. Glad you're here!
Good advice above, ... ... ... at 2 weeks, you're just now starting to get a clear head about you ... you cannot expect the 'promises' to come true for you after only 2 weeks in ... it takes time to heal the old wounds and the AA program certainly lays out a method for doing just that ... JUST REMEMBER, THERE IS ABSOLUTELY NOTHING YOU'RE GOING THROUGH, THAT A DRINK OR A DRUG WON'T MAKE WORSE ...
You must ask yourself, Do I want to get well ??? ... -or- ... Do I want to stay sick ??? .... Your choice!
There's a great life out here for you ... just waiting for you to get your 'act' together ... it don't happen overnite ... you're not happy ? ... how long did it take to get yourself into this kind of shape ??? ... It WILL take a bit of time to recover from the mess we all made ... took me a while, but God, I'm glad I stuck around ... would change nothing right now, in my life ...
Thank You for reminding me of where I used to be, and God Bless, Pappy
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'Those who leave everything in God's hand will eventually see God's hand in everything.'
I left rehab after 4 and a half months to be in a relationship that never worked, i drank again but quickly realised its not what i wanted, so got myself back to meetings 2 weeks ago, im doing at least 1 a day and sharing loads but cant seem to feel happy at all, my emotions are everywhere and i feel i cant have a deep conversation with anyone, i know i cant carry on like this or i will drink again, that is the last thing i want to do but feel im still living in the illness, any suggestions