Kind of...I made recovery my obsession...I knew the only way to rid myself of the obsession to drink was to work the steps...I studied the book...Hung around with the people working the program and asked a boatload of questions....I got a sponsor right out of the gate and got busy working them....Before I knew it....I was living in steps 10, 11 and 12 and the obsession to drink was lifted...Just like the book said it would happen....I still can't get over the fact that everything they say in that book is true....Blows my mind.
-- Edited by Stepchild on Thursday 19th of July 2012 09:09:21 PM
So, since I'm still able to walk and talk, I'm still going to work. But I've made it a point to keep myself away from the "scene of the crime" (the nurses cart). And I've started becoming a clean freak? I took four showers today, bought a set of home dental care and inspected for cavities and scraped inside my mouth, and cleaned out my car, my apartment, my school bag. I went through my closet and donated some clothes. Any thing to keep my mind off this incessant obsession.
Anyone else go through this stage?
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In the end, everything will be alright. If it is not alright, it is not the end... Paulo coelho (also marigold hotel)
I just started my 90x90, I'm always really selective in who I keep in my life, so I'm trying to scope out who I natually gravitate towards before picking my sponsor. Also, I'm not sure which 12step I want to prescribe to so I'm scoping both meetings. I've found ups and downs (according to my issues not a judgement on which fellowship is better) to both fellowships.
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In the end, everything will be alright. If it is not alright, it is not the end... Paulo coelho (also marigold hotel)
I had to laugh, ... in my first month or two, I began cleaning the house ... you know, all the things you should do but hadn't done in a long time ... like cleaning windows inside and out ... weeding the flower bed, cleaning out the closets, paint the cabinets, etc. ... ... ... Ha! ... ... bet I had the cleanest house on the block ... But it kept me from thinking of drinking ... and it helped me to use up all of the detox energy I had built up ...
I don't know what you're detoxing from, but when it's alcohol, you'll have an accelerated heart rate and high blood pressure ... and you get antsy to be doing something ... it's truly amazing how much extra time we have on our hands when where not drinking or drugging ...
I did a lot of reading too ...
God Bless, Pappy
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Hey:) yes, I did experience that a bit..lots of nervous energy. I'm a walker (have never driven) so that would help release it a bit. Also, I BEGAN many organization projects, then would get overwhelmed or distracted..i couldn't really keep my mind focused on the task at hand. I had to laugh, too, when reading your post because I just got around to putting my closet back in order today. When drinking, I had a habit of going shopping after having a few and buying clothes and shoes. Ok?!? I dunno WHO I was buying all this stuff for but I had lotsa clothes I would never wear in public haha (but they're all in my size..huh.. A mystery.. Lol!!). I think what your experiencing is pretty normal.
totally normal 5 years later i am still way more active than i ever was before but it does level out in time as you learn to live with your self again keep comiing back
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Obsession with self in these matters is a dead end; attention to God leads us out into the open, into a spacious, free life. Romans 8:6 , The Message
Neophyte - I don't think what you described is unusual. A tip to staying sober is to stay busy and this worked even more so in earlier sobriety for me. I could not sit still because then I would be stuck in my head and I hated that. I was also told to get out of my head so constantly doing "stuff" helped. Whatever it takes to not use.
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I guess the extra energy reminded me of how I was on uppers, but I guess that just means I never needed the uppers for the energy any way... Huh, imagine that.
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In the end, everything will be alright. If it is not alright, it is not the end... Paulo coelho (also marigold hotel)
So, since I'm still able to walk and talk, I'm still going to work. But I've made it a point to keep myself away from the "scene of the crime" (the nurses cart). And I've started becoming a clean freak? I took four showers today, bought a set of home dental care and inspected for cavities and scraped inside my mouth, and cleaned out my car, my apartment, my school bag. I went through my closet and donated some clothes. Any thing to keep my mind off this incessant obsession. Anyone else go through this stage?
Yeah, but I'm a freak in general. So it really doesn't bother me all that much. Freak, in a good way I mean-no comments Pappy. Remaining sober is the key, though, so whatever I need to do works for me. The best medicine I've found is helping others, though. It works even better. Happy cleaning...
Can't imagine I have much to offer anyone at this stage... Guess I'll have to get the courage to talk to people to find out. Funny thing, ain't it? I'm totally comfortable hiding behind a computer screen asking for help, not in person though... Makes ya think, doughnut (as in "don't it")
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In the end, everything will be alright. If it is not alright, it is not the end... Paulo coelho (also marigold hotel)
Can't imagine I have much to offer anyone at this stage... Guess I'll have to get the courage to talk to people to find out. Funny thing, ain't it? I'm totally comfortable hiding behind a computer screen asking for help, not in person though... Makes ya think, doughnut (as in "don't it")
Nice, even though I believe the opposite is true. I think everyone has at least one good thing to offer, so offer up and expect something fantastic to happen in return. That's how I would approach it, regardless.
It didn't take courage for any of us to get to our first meetings - It was desperation and feeling so low that there was no other place to go for help.
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