It's been about... A ZILLION... degrees out lately here in west central WI.  Day after day, my poor sweet farm animals suffer through the heat with little attention from us other than when we rush out to quickly get them some cold water and fresh hay.  I would normally bust out the door at about 7am to do my little "rounds", but lately I've been late in giving the chickens some feed, sitting to watch them peck at it, and each other, discovering the "order" and watching their weird little eyes stare back at me.  If I do not get to them first, they follow me ALLLL the way to the back pen where the sheep and goats are, and ALLL the way back, darting around my legs in anticipation of their treat.  I feel so popular, but I know better, they just want something from me.

Actually, I want something from them too, and they seem to know it as they march proudly to the coop to do their job. Their organic grain and access to fresh grass and bugs makes the yolks of their eggs the color of the sunset.  I wont be able to go back to eating the store bought stuff, now that I have it so good : )

There is a balance in my life like this.  And I'll never be able to go back to who I was before AA... no matter how that plays out.  The world is give and take now.  I give and take what I need in my program of recovery, and it absolutely must work together. 

When I came to AA - it was all take - and those of you who remembered that it's about all a person can do, saved my life.  Meanwhile, I'm taught how to teach, and consciously remain teachable today... as I am still just that young chick, fuzzy and clumsy most of the time. 

When we get a new batch of chicks in the spring, It always amazes me the will to survive the littlest ones have.  They are inspiring with their drive to live.  They will squeeze between the cracks to get to food, and work twice as hard, but the outcome pays off.

I realized a little while ago, that having alcoholism means extra work every day, for the rest of my life.  I decided to not feel sorry for myself, that no one has it perfect, and the struggles I am given, are here for a reason. 

Today, I wouldn't change it for the world.

I want sobriety.

And you're the good eggs : )

Thanks for being here!