So I have all these rolled up posters I need to sort. I decided I needed a box with holes in it, so I could put the rolled posters in specific holes to organize them.
So I went to a local liqoour store, asked for a few boxes, they said sure, I waited a few mins, they brought a bunch up from the basement, I took em home, End of story.
Here's the thing. When I realized I needed these boxes with holes I already had in my apt large deep boxes and 1" masking tape., all sorts of stuff like that. The far more practical, easy and immediate solution would have been to just take a box and use the tape to make a grid, voila. 5 minute solution.
I'm certain within my sobriety I have been in liquor stores, it's just so infrequent I cannot remember a single one (those of you, ahem, of a certain age will understand).
So in period where I am kinda stressed out (sex, security, society stuff) gosh I happened to wind up hanging around in a liquor store.
That's how it works on me. King Alcohol told me to go to the liqour store. My brain said sure, used my intellect to come up with a good rationalization, and poof, "I" found this great solution to my box issue.
As I always say, if I hang out in a barber shop long enough, eventually I will drink the blue stuff they keep the combs in.
Yeah....I was wondering why you had to go to the liquor store to get boxes. Grocery stores have them too. I will be more likely to go to a bar (at 4 years sober almost) than a liquor store. Theres just about no good motive to go to a liquor store. In a bar, I could socialize...prior to being in a relationship it could have been for sex (which is not necessarily good or bad).... There's just no motive that is really good to go to a liquor store. Of course in your subconscious maybe you remembered how they had an excess of boxes there when you used to go there to buy alcohol. They have less boxes sitting out in the grocery store, but the boxes are still available. Either way - It is sort of telling that your response to "I need....(insert any thing) is in a liquor store.
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I know a number of people who have relapsed after substantial periods of time (15-20+years) and a number of them said that picking up the drink seemed like the most natural and sensible thing. Early relapses usually sound more like lots of high drama, lots of exclamation points and weeping. When life smooths out it seems the sick thinking creeps back slowly, imperceptibly, like a slowly dimming light.
The thing I need to keep green is not the horror stories or car wrecks, it's that I have this alien technology somewhere in my otherwise healthy mind and it can spread.
I know a number of people who have relapsed after substantial periods of time (15-20+years) and a number of them said that picking up the drink seemed like the most natural and sensible thing. Early relapses usually sound more like lots of high drama, lots of exclamation points and weeping. When life smooths out it seems the sick thinking creeps back slowly, imperceptibly, like a slowly dimming light.
The thing I need to keep green is not the horror stories or car wrecks, it's that I have this alien technology somewhere in my otherwise healthy mind and it can spread.
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