Bizarre or not, ... Ice Cream works for me ... ... ...
Great share Colleen ... thanks
Pappy
I couldn't agree more. And I second the ice cream gesture as well. As long as pappy doesn't steal mine, though. So hands off Pappy, okay. I want some ice cream too. I hope you have a better tomorrow, Colleen.
-- Edited by Mr_David on Saturday 23rd of June 2012 12:02:13 AM
Hey guys:) I just had a rather bizarre experience. I was at my night job after a long day. The night at work proved to be frustrating. To get this story you have to know my night job is in a restaurant and I wait tables in a rather high end place. So, I'm making no $ as my section is right next to bar and there's a bunch of really loud and obnoxious drunk people crowding my tables. So I ask my boss if it's cool if I leave early tonight..he says yes. This is around 700..so I'm thinking maybe I can still hit a meeting..no dice. My last table (cute young couple on early date..how annoying lol!) lingered. So, seeing as I've made about 10$ so far I just wanna get the hell outta there. It's hot, I'm cranky, I'm surrounded by loud drunk people.. I'm pretty much having an internal temper tantrum. When I realize these kids have kept me past time of meeting I get this intense out of nowhere desire to go to my old bar. So now I'm really agitated and these kids are still "debating" about whether or not to have dessert. I'm kinda getting unreasonably enraged internally. Then they ask for the check..well the computer system at this very instant crashes so I can't give them the check. I'm fuming so I go outside to smoke 2 cigarettes to get my head together and "talk with God" (haha not out loud). Come back in..computers operational, they get the check and I realize how dumb and crazy my thoughts of drinking were. I got an ice cream instead:) higher power intervention or bizarre coincidence? Dunno..but I didn't drink. A small victory:)
Ice Cream also does it for me...very well and I use to kinda sorta cheat in the early days when Baskin Robbins had Rum Raisin flavor. Where the hell did that go? Good for you on the program work.
I'm starting to think there are nocoincidences...Nice job on not drinking...Hope your boss let's you rotate those stations....That would drive me nuts.
I don't believe in co-incidences ... I believe all things happen for a reason ... it's just that sometimes we understand them, afterward, and sometimes we don't even have a clue as to 'why' this or 'why' that ... (and sometimes it's futile to even go looking for the answers ... LOL)
Pappy
P.S. This reminded me of a conversation I had ith my sponsor early on ... went something like this:
Me: Im going to tell you something.Ive been listening to you and listening to youNow you listen to me....I DO NOT UNDERSTAND..
Sponsor: AND THATS IT & DONT YOU EVER FORGET IT. Theres two things you must remember every day for the rest of your days
1. No matter whats gon on in your lifeYou Do Not Understand.then youll have understanding ... And when you quit trying to understand, then you can enjoy it.
2. No matter what your situation is,.its never them..never her, never him never God,its YOU that must become different than you ever have before.
Me: How do I do that?
Sponsor: Oh! You cant!
Me: What the Hell you telln' me that for???
Sponsor: Thats whats goin' to happen to ya.
NOW IM GOING TO GIVE YOU THE KICKER. This is the very one thing that got you hereBut its the very one thing that,..should it not change,..will be the very one thing thats going to keep you from getting all the things that God has for his children..
As long as you know that you know,.youll never know....But when you begin to do what we tell you not to do and to do and begin to know that you dont know,.then youll begin to know..
Me: Hell, youre crazy
Sponsor: I know
-- Edited by Pythonpappy on Thursday 21st of June 2012 12:22:56 PM
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I'm starting to think there are nocoincidences...Nice job on not drinking...Hope your boss let's you rotate those stations....That would drive me nuts.
It's a strange coincidence, but it seems that as long as an alcoholic is seriously trying to work the steps, God will provide an effective defence against the first drink.
Col - I can totally relate to the internal temper tantrums ha ha! They are getting fewer and farther apart. This is a great program, and you're doing great!
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Thanks for everything. Peace and Love on your journey.
Awesome Col - We need these incidents so we grow stronger and our faith grows as well...These "little" things add up because when you really have to face something very difficult, you know you can do it.
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Keep coming back. It works if you work it. So work it. You're worth it!
I don't know, maybe I'm reading too much into a small thing. I feel as though the minute I got an urge to drink I said a silent prayer to help me not, and a series of events kept me from actually physically being able to act on the urge. I think if I had left work at 7 when I wanted to I could've very well wound
up in a bar. I was forced to have over an hour to think it through instead. Kinda like the day I received my copy of the big book in the mail (I was too chicken to go to a meeting at that point). I was walking home and thinking/praying that I needed some concrete, tangible guidance to help me not drink..and isn't the ups truck pulling away from my house as I'm walking up driveway? My book was delivered. Just strange stuff. Whether its me making too much of little coincidences doesn't matter I suppose. It strengthens my faith regardless.
I don't know, maybe I'm reading too much into a small thing. I feel as though the minute I got an urge to drink I said a silent prayer to help me not, and a series of events kept me from actually physically being able to act on the urge.
I don't think you reading too much into it...I like your plan...It's worked for me so far...I'd stick with it. Until I had worked through those steps I did a lot of praying just to make it through the day. And I never picked up. That's all I need to know.
