"life is not an intellectual exercise."
"the hardest 18 inches to connect is from your head to your heart."
"god is not a think it's a feel"
my biggest issue is my intellect (or my lack there of?). So, previously, my way of understanding these quotes was to think and think and think (which got me nowhere) but when I started to say them, and then feel them, not think about them... That is when I knew that my brain and my heat moved an inch closer to eachother.
And when I told someone who had more experience than I did about this epiphany, they smirked. And my intelligence got defiant, but then they said they weren't laughing at me, they was sharing my moment of clarity.
:) to know and to feel are two very different things.
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sober: showing no excessive or extreme qualities of fancy, emotion, or prejudice
That is a big leap ruhig. My intelligence has been an asset and I use it to self-sabotage too. I used to think that if I was supposed to believe in God, then God would reveal him/her/itself to me in a way that I could not deny the existence any longer. I failed to examine the very definition of faith which is to believe in something without having full proof. Not only is God soemthing you feel once you have faith, but it's something you know also.
Without faith, I lived with crippling anxiety and couldn't stant the world. With faith, I can appreciate things the way they are and, slowly as more sober time has passed, I actually see God has made a pretty decent world and I am blessed. This would be step 2 working (and step 3)
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