This really made me think. I remember where I was when I first began using AA, I couldnt call it anything but, Dead, or 1 inch away from dead. That exact second there were some old AA pamphlets lying beside my matress in a filthy dark room, and I grabbed them when I awoke in the middle of the night alone and in a real sick place. I remember feeling some power with them when I was reading the steps. I remember how the way I pictured god in my mind in that second became a reality right then when I had never felt a real spiritual power before. That was a while ago. I was out today with my mother driving in the country and I was so peaceful I was able to have the best conversation with her Ive had with anyone in years, I was reminding myself of being a young kid in school who had never had a sip of alcohol, just staring at fields and wooden barns 100% calm and peaceful, nothing bothering me. It really makes me think and I dont think Im gonna buy any liquor soon, I dont wanna be sick. I dont wanna die. I dont wanna drink when GOD saved my life at the last second...
Closer.
-- Edited by Closer on Sunday 17th of June 2012 06:44:32 AM
Today my long lonley isolated days have left me, I have the friendship of all in AA that help me.
A few years back someone told me,yep told me :} once I start thinking of others I will have moved on in my recovery. Thank goodness for me today is no longer always about me,myself and I. And I no longer isolate myself.
I get off my butt get to meetings share my experience strength and hope with others. They also told me to drop the '' but '' thing as in yes but !! :}
Neighbors ^*^*^ "Near you, alcoholics are dying helplessly like people on a sinking ship. If you live in a large place, there are hundreds. High and low, rich and poor, these are future fellows of Alcoholics Anonymous. Among them you will make lifelong friends. You will be bound to them with new and wonderful ties, for you will escape disaster together and you will commence shoulder to shoulder your common journey. Then you will know what it means to give of yourself that others may survive and rediscover life. You will learn the full meaning of 'Love they neighbor as thyself.' " 1976AAWS, Alcoholics Anonymous, pp. 152-3
A.A. Thought for the Day We in A.A. have the privilege of living two lives in one lifetime. One life of drunkenness, failure, and defeat. Then, through A.A., another life of sobriety, peace of mind, and usefulness. We who have recovered our sobriety are modem miracles. And were living on borrowed time. Some of us might have been dead long ago. But we have been given another chance to live. Do I owe a debt of gratitude to A.A. that I can never repay as long as I live?
Today I am able to repay my debt each and every day by helping others I too help myself. Its so nice not to feel isolated and lonley and for me I never want those days to return so i continue and do for me what is good for me. :}
Thanks all for keep coming back where would I be without you. !
We found the Great Reality deep down within us. In the last analysis it is only there that He may be found. . . search diligently within yourself. . . . With this attitude you cannot fail. The consciousness of your belief is sure to come to you.
ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p. 55
It was out of the depths of loneliness, depression and despair that I sought the help of A.A. As I recovered and began to face the emptiness and ruin of my life, I began to open myself to the possibility of the healing that recovery offers through the A.A. program. By coming to meetings, staying sober, and taking the Steps, I had the opportunity to listen with increasing attentiveness to the depths of my soul. Daily I waited, in hope and gratitude, for that sure belief and steadfast love I had longed for in my life. In this process, I met my God, as I understand Him.
From the book Daily Reflections.
I thank my God/Higher Power and all in AA that help take my loneliness and isolation away. Without you all I would be a lost soul.!
. . . if only men were granted absolute liberty, and were compelled to obey no one, they would then voluntarily associate themselves in the common interest
AS BILL SEES IT, p. 50
When I no longer live under the dictates of another or of alcohol, I live in a new freedom. When I release the past and all the excess baggage I have carried for so very long, I come to know freedom. I have been introduced into a life and a fellowship of freedom. The Steps are a "recommended" way of finding a new life, there are no commands or dictates in A.A. I am free to serve from desire rather than decree. There is the understanding that I will benefit from the growth of other members and I take what I learn and bring it back to the group. The "common welfare" finds room to grow in the society of personal freedom ...
A.A. Thought for the Day
The A.A. way of living is not an easy one. But its an adventure in living that is really worthwhile. And it's so much better than our old drunken way of living that there's no comparison. Our lives without A.A. would be worth nothing. With A.A., we have a chance to live reasonably good lives. It's worth the battle, no matter how tough the going is from day to day. Isn't it worth the battle?
Today I no longer feel its a battle to live without a drink but I do know that I need AA in my life''' always.'' Always to remind me ! always to support me ! and always to pass on my share to the newcomer...And always to help me with my illness that keep wanting me to STAY AWAY AND ISOLATE MYSELF..I will not let this very cunning illness destroy me. I understand that i need AA for my own PROTECTION AGAINST IT :}
Protect yourself '' Keep coming back '' Thanks for helping me live a good life today..SOBER :}
