Hey all:) so I just received my copy of the Big Book...and I will be spending my precious Friday night off exploring it. Now if you had told me 3 weeks ago (have 16 days sober today) that I would have in my possession any aa literature I would've most likely told ya to go f yourself haha. Today, I'm actually looking forward to my Friday night "date" with book . What a difference 16 days can make huh? Also one of my closest friends just called me to see if I was"out and about" (code for out drinking) or working-and it made me realize that I was that chick that was Always out and about. Quite literally if I wasn't at work or sleeping, I was at a bar. How pathetic. And I wonder how many of my "very close friends" will turn out to be just old drinking buddies.
on one of your postings I suggested to you what my sponsor suggested to me----read/ what is aa . page25 pages1-64 every morning3RD STEP PRAYER page63/ 7th STEP PRAYER page76 every night read pages84 -to the end 88/ God Bless you
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This is how it starts Col and there's no turning back. Now that you know there's a way out you'll be drawn back again and again. Unless you're one of the smart ones who just understands and gets it right the first time. You can't undo what you learn in AA, you'll try and maybe even think you have for a while, but it will always be there. And every morning after when you wake up with an pounding head and the crushing despair that only the alcoholic knows you'll think of AA. So you might as well just stick around.
This is how it starts Col and there's no turning back. Now that you know there's a way out you'll be drawn back again and again. Unless you're one of the smart ones who just understands and gets it right the first time. You can't undo what you learn in AA, you'll try and maybe even think you have for a while, but it will always be there. And every morning after when you wake up with an pounding head and the crushing despair that only the alcoholic knows you'll think of AA. So you might as well just stick around.
Good post, except I'd say 'the truly defeated ones' rather that the smart ones. It's surrender and not intellect that gives us the reprieve.
AGREE with Frodo ... From my observation (and 1st hand knowledge) ... it's the 'smart' ones that feel, after a time, that they now have the key to controlling their alcohol intake ... but alas, most return, tail under their legs, ready to try and figure it out all over again ...
When I conceded the fact that I wasn't as 'smart' as I thought I was, and stuck around to simply work the program, rather than trying to figure out WHY it worked, then I got better ...
So it seems to me, in the end, the dumb ones that stuck around were actually the smart ones and the smart ones, like me, turned out to really be the dumb ones after all ... what is that ??? ... an oxyMoron ???
Take Care, Pappy
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