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Hi Kendra, ...

Well, ... for me it took a while for my body to adjust to no alcohol ... lot of sweets helped, but I still felt horrible for weeks ... each day got a little better, still, some were pretty rough ... I went through moments of doubt ... doubt as to whether I could do this or not ... "Going to meetings SAVED my life" ... It got me into the habit of 'suiting up and showing up' as they say ...

If you had seen the effort I put into getting my regular stash of beer and liquor, then you'd understand that it really wasn't much of an effort to get to a meeting, IN COMPARISON ... One time I had a sponsor call me and ask if I was coming to tonight's meeting, I SAID IT'S RAINING .... He asked, you ever go out in weather like this to go get a beer??? .... I said okay, ... I'll be there ...

If you are indeed too ill to go to a meeting, then you may need the advice of a doctor ... You may should be under a doctor's care through this period ... your body chemicals are likely way 'out-of-balance' ... and you may need some meds to help you ...

You said: Ive been reading my Big Book,but I feel as though I violated my sobriety by not going......Where is this comming from? ... ... ... It's likely you've made a commitment to yourself and meant it ... and some things are just now catching up to you ... it can be a little over-whelming at first, but meetings are exactly what you need to get through this period, because this time shall also pass ...

Love ya and God Bless,
Pappy

P.S. I posted another set of blonde jokes for you when you feel like giggling again!!!



-- Edited by Pythonpappy on Thursday 31st of May 2012 05:23:19 PM

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noconfuse I am so easily confused,I may be over whelming my self? Lately I dont know rite from wrong........I am physically under the weather and it just is putting me in a funk...I feel so guilty cause Ive been trying to make atleast 2 meetings I didnt make one today ,Ive been reading my Big Book,but I feel as though I violated my sobriety by not going......Where is this comming from?



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Sometimes I could talk myself right out of keeping any kind of balance in sobriety by self-blaming, guilt-tripping, whatever I could do to manipulate an excuse to get negative. It wasn't conscious, but it was effectively self-sabotaging. So it became more important to take everything a day at a time and not judge myself for not being perfect on any given day, since that was a non-win situation anyway. As I got stronger I played fewer games with myself.

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thank you soooooooooo much,God bless you



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Pappy,I went to the hospital they tried to give me pain pills,I told them I was indeed in recovery n he (Doctor ) got crabby with me????????? I figured he was mad cause I wouldnt take a quick fix...........lolololol.......thanks I posted on your 2 posts..... LOVE YOU GOD BLESS


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I hope you're feeling better Kendra.



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Thank you ,and I am doing ok..Im depressed and dont even know why....



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kendra v wrote:

Thank you ,and I am doing ok..Im depressed and dont even know why....

 

I bounced up and down for a couple of months. Some days I was on cloud 9, others I felt like bursting into tears over every little thing. It's just your body trying to repair itself and getting used not being flooded with alcohol.

I won't lie to you: it's rough, and it might get rougher, but it will pass and then it will get better. Much better. I wouldn't want to do it again but looking back I'm glad I did. It was the most important test of my life and I passed. I went through something not many people will understand and I came out the other side a better and happier person than I ever thought possible.

When things were at their worst I just kept reminding myself that I was one day closer to the end of the withdrawals, one day closer to freedom, and I kept the words of Winston Churchill at the front of my mind:

" If you are going to go through hell, keep going."

 

Prayers and thoughts.



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We're so in the habit of beating up on ourselves it's automatic. Takes daily effort to change the negative messages, we send to ourselves, to positive ones. I got a lot of help from reading this book every morning (little daily readings). http://www.amazon.com/Daily-Affirmations-Adult-Children-Alcoholics/dp/0932194273

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Thank you Dean,I ll visit the site you suggested,,I make so many mistakes in life ,why do people forgive me?



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