There is such relief going to a meeting, getting huge hugs, seeing smiles, listening to the messages.
I know life is what happens between the Lord's Prayer (the prayer that ends most of the meetings I attend) and the Serenity Prayer (the prayer that begins most of the meetings I attend). And I am working on the relief outside of meetings. But, I really need that hour I spend in a meeting. It's a place where I feel safe, where I can listen to others who have lived a life like mine. It's a place where everyone knows and I can just be me. It's a place where I can be honest and say, "I don't get it yet, but I think I'll keep coming back because it seems to be working for all of you." It's a place where people with 20 and 30 years sobriety tell me to keep coming back because it took them awhile to "get it" too.
The last couple of days meetings have shifted from places where I am trembling with fear to a place where I feel like I belong. Each time I am a little more honest with myself, in meetings, with other recovering alcoholics, things get a little easier. I think that rigourous honesty might be starting to seep in just a little bit.
-- Edited by very very tired on Sunday 27th of May 2012 01:05:18 PM
I really appreciate you shareing ,its hard however its harder living active in our addictions,just keep your head up and keep up the great work we are a family and we are here for eachother thats how we stay sober....
What JaD said...I love that feeling that I get when after I've sat down the meeting's starts. A feeling of relaxation, or everything's OK right now, not matter what it's like out there. Kind of the feeling I got with the first beer -- but better! And no hangover afterward! :)
