I went to a meeting. This dude says to me are you new? I say no, I'm here to get a sponsor. Dude says, raise your hand. Say that. I ask him, even if it's irrelavent to the topic? Dude says yes. I raise my hand. I'm gonna need a sponsor, thanks. And three chicks came up to me all at once. I thought I was gonna have a panic attack.
So I talk to this chick and incognito throw in that my history involves more drugs than alcohol. She gave an incognito "I can't be your sponsor" so I text this other chick and say if I tell you my history involves more meth than alcohol? And she said yes. So worth the emotional trauma of them all coming up at once.
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you went to any (an uncomfortable) length to show your desire to stop drinking/drugging and showed you really want it. keep coming back, sister, and do your best, that's all we can do, one day at a time. hugs, sheila/jj
Thanks guys. Had a bit of down time, did a bit of exploring. Found where my reservations are, lol, exactly where I left them. Makin the effort as far as my sponsor goes. Still working on making myself want a meeting. :)
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Still working on making myself want a meeting. :) I might not always want to go but I make myself go and every time I am pleased that I did :} Even when I come home annoyed !
Why because today that makes me human. And today I know that being angry or happy is not going to be making me pick up another drink. Not now when I can come on here too lol.
This forum has given me some kind of calming effect :} :} And its keeping me sober.
Got an assignment. And I have my sponsors BB, I'm trying to copy her notes and make my own so that I can give it back to her asap (she has other sponsees and herself she may need it) so I've spent all day flipping between my book, hers and my notebook. I can't help but wonder if I have switched one obsession for another today. Everything in moderation????
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sober: showing no excessive or extreme qualities of fancy, emotion, or prejudice
Got an assignment. And I have my sponsors BB, I'm trying to copy her notes and make my own so that I can give it back to her asap (she has other sponsees and herself she may need it) so I've spent all day flipping between my book, hers and my notebook. I can't help but wonder if I have switched one obsession for another today. Everything in moderation????
Don't worry about it, I was told to devote as much time to my recovery as I did to my drinking, so I did, it was a full time endeavor (I had fun too)
Moderation comes in time with the return of mental health
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