I finally got up on my feet today. Ive been in a brokenhearted state for a long time. The whole time Ive been going through this Ive felt my higher power with me, it has kept me safe. Im finally able to see all the good things in life, the good people, the good family, the fellowship, I understand that I am cared about and Im feeling the way I did years ago. Im not looking for a reward for my suffering, Im not mad at anyone, Im just happy to be outside on a sunny day feeling safe, happy and healthy. Its been the hardest thing in the world but Ive let it all go and Im me again. Ive had my higher power keeping an eye on me the whole time and I am happy to say I am alive today and Im an alcoholic. I didnt think Id survive this so many times but I knew if I just kept working at recovery I would one day find myself, and here I am! I am the old me, I have a home, I have a family, I have the fellowship, I have a community, and I have a new way of life that is much healthier and better than sitting in a room with a bottle of alcohol, hurt and sick wondering about people and all the awful things in the world, I am over it. I am now able to go outside feeling completely safe, I can talk to people in ways I never could as a drunk, I have stuff understood I could never see before, I am not angry at anyone, I am just a guy who lives in a building who has a bunch of new interests and a lot happier outlook on life. I owe a lot to this program which I started a while ago and especially my higher power who kept me safe while I was walking in the darkness. I was the most sick unhappy person in the world for so long but I am now completely free and just ready to step forward without worrying about anything or anyone.
Thankyou AA
This program works if you want it.
Brian (the guy who called himself problem solver.)
-- Edited by Problem Solver on Tuesday 8th of May 2012 12:48:36 AM
If we want it we stay...And I am going to say from now on because I just do not have another recovery in me, my last one was far to horrendous to ever forget that I must keep coming back.
"We commenced to make many fast friends and a fellowship has grown up among us of which it is a wonderful thing to feel a part of. The joy of living we really have, even under pressure and difficulty. I have seen hundreds of families set their feet in the path that really goes somewhere; have seen the most impossible domestic situations righted; feuds and bitterness of all sorts wiped out. I have seen men come out of asylums and resume a vital place in the lives of their families and communities. Business and professional men have regained their standing. There is scarcely any form of trouble and misery which has not been overcome among us." Bill W., Alcoholics Anonymous, p. 15
