Admitted to God, to ourselves, and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs.
TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 55
Since it is true that God comes to me through people, I can see that by keeping people at a distance I also keep God at a distance. God is nearer to me than I think and I can experience Him by loving people and allowing people to love me. But I can neither love nor be loved if I allow my secrets to get in the way.
It's the side of myself that I refuse to look at that rules me. I must be willing to look at the dark side in order to heal my mind and heart because that is the road to freedom. I must walk into darkness to find the light and walk into fear to find peace.
By revealing my secrets-and thereby ridding myself of guilt-I can actually change my thinking; by altering my thinking, I can change myself. My thoughts create my future. What I will be tomorrowis determined by what I think today.
The A.A. program is one of charity because the real meaning of the word charity is to care enough about other people to really want to help them. To get the full benefit of the program, we must try to help other alcoholics. We may try to help some body and think we have failed, but the seed we have planted may bear fruit some time. We never know the results even a word of ours might have. But the main thing is to have charity for others, a real desire to help them, whether we succeed or not. Do I have real charity?
Meditation for the Day
All material things, the universe, the world, even our bodies, may be Eternal Thought expressed in time and space. The more the physicists and astronomers reduce matter; the more it becomes a mathematical formula, which is thought. In the final analysis, matter is thought. When Eternal Thought expresses itself within the framework of space and time, it becomes matter. Our thoughts, within the box of space and time, cannot know anything firsthand, except material things. But we can deduce that outside the box of space and time is Eternal Thought, which we can call God.
Prayer for the Day
I pray that I may be a true expression of Eternal Thought. I pray that God's thoughts may work through my thoughts.
All my good reading each day that starts me on the right kind of thinking,reading and a quiet few moments with my Higher Power.
I have been feeling down,unable to get on line. This past week was my Mothers Birthday she passed away 2yrs ago,also it was 10yrs ago since my sister killed herself. So I have felt very tender to say the least. ! When I feel like this I so push others away, others that want to be with me and encourage me,but still I hide myself away with my tears. I was told years ago I was my own worst enemy and yes I am. Back in those days I did not have AA in my life and the love I have today.
Thank goodness today I do not tend to do this for too long, I have learnt this to be not good for me. My higher power has given my path to recover only with the help of other AA's I must not isolate myself as I did in my drinking days.
My Higher Power guides me through this all, through prayer and meditation. In my drinking days I had lost the love of my higher power today I need to tap into my God constantly. I need the tools of AA to read and work at constantly.
And because I understand and know this today I am truly grateful,for all who came before me and all who come into the rooms to learn the same each day as I do.
Its a program that keeps me alive :} Its fantastic.:}
Thank you for your sharing and speaking your truth. I'm sorry for your losses, Polly, & I hope you're finding healing in your recovery & sobriety. It is a beautiful gift to allow others to see us when we're most vulnerable. We were promised never alone again & I wanted this so much. So, I salute your courage standing up for you & letting yourself be seen here & hopefully at home. You desrve your happiness & your life no matter who leaves us first. They stay with us forever like the gift we are to still others. Thank you again for sharing with me & allowing me to reach out, connect & touch back. God bless, sister. Love & fellowship, Danielle x
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