Lost my 24s on day 13.
I did my taxes yesterday and found out I owe over $2000. I have exactly $1.12 in my savings account.
My family went out to dinner to celebrate my sister's birthday and a glass of wine was poured for me. I ordered a coke, but drank it and the wine. I had the one glass, and after that, after eating, I noticed how drunk everyone else was getting, and I asked myself if that's what I really wanted.
My heart, brain and body said no. I had no more to drink. But my sobriety was already compromised.
Progress, not perfection, I remind myself. my sponsor took me to a meeting tonight and I got another desire chip.
What did I learn from this?
-drinking will not lower my tax bill
-I don't want to act silly in a nice restaurant
-it's nice to remember the evening the next day
-i need to put my sobriety before other things like family and finances. Without sobriety, I won't be able to enjoy other people or material things.
this is a very important 24 hours. Thank you for helping me stay sober for it.
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The Golden Rule: Treat yourself the way you treat others.
honesty helps keep us sober. we help each other stay sober. keep coming back, i have done the same thing, but i kept coming back because it works when i work it. (((hugs)))
For me......one thing that i learned is that walking down the stairs to my first meeting ruined my drinking. After beginning my new life of sobriety, It would never feel ok to drink again. Now that I know what I know and the experience of a new normal, a sober normal has bashed my drinking career. So in saying this, The way I see your situation is, you didnt leave the program......you made a decision thinking in the old way. You caught yourself because of the program. Thats what shows me that we are people in progress, not perfection. This way of life needs to be practiced. Each day a new one. I love your attitude. You are beginning to know what you want. You are right, drinking will not help your situation. I find it amazing the solutions I can come up with sober, and how I now see my higher power working in my life now that I recognize him. So keep on keeping on .......chin up, smile in place and thank you for posting and helping me stay sober.......:}
For me AA spoiled my drinking, but I did not come until after 4 months had passed. I nearly lost my life. Congratulations to you for still having sanity.
Thanks for sharing your honesty. I had a few of those "couldn't quite say no" moments, followed by another white chip. I was never a wine drinker but, when in that situation, I turn my wine glass upside down, or hand it to the waiter and tell him/her "I won't be needing this".
Lost my 24s on day 13. I did my taxes yesterday and found out I owe over $2000. I have exactly $1.12 in my savings account. My family went out to dinner to celebrate my sister's birthday and a glass of wine was poured for me. I ordered a coke, but drank it and the wine. I had the one glass, and after that, after eating, I noticed how drunk everyone else was getting, and I asked myself if that's what I really wanted. My heart, brain and body said no. I had no more to drink. But my sobriety was already compromised. Progress, not perfection, I remind myself. my sponsor took me to a meeting tonight and I got another desire chip. What did I learn from this? -drinking will not lower my tax bill -I don't want to act silly in a nice restaurant -it's nice to remember the evening the next day -i need to put my sobriety before other things like family and finances. Without sobriety, I won't be able to enjoy other people or material things. this is a very important 24 hours. Thank you for helping me stay sober for it.
I remember when someone would threaten my smoking four (4) packs of Marlboros a day (This was back when you could smoke in hospital beds). I'd immediately reach for a cigarette. Your tax bill came and you reached for a drink. Fear not. As you distance yourself from your addiction, you will begin to stop reaching. Just one of many promises this program offers. Thing is, you just can't drink while you quit drinking, one day at a time.
Thanks for sharing your honesty. I had a few of those "couldn't quite say no" moments, followed by another white chip. I was never a wine drinker but, when in that situation, I turn my wine glass upside down, or hand it to the waiter and tell him/her "I won't be needing this".
I have never thought to do this, great advice. Thanks
Thanks for a great posting. Its advised that if we need to attend events in out early days take our car,and leave when we feel uncomfortable. Its also advised not to go into watering holes too :} Its just until we feel stronger to cope.
I know sometimes we cant,but a plan '' B '' is always needed. Your so very lucky that you did not carry on and need to be taken home.
So happy that you got to a meeting too :} Yes My sobriety come before EVERYTHING ELSE. I would have nothing if I were not sober.
The thought of not, terrifies me, I could not help another drunk.drunk ! I need to help other people who want to do their very best to work a program like me.
I did my taxes yesterday and found out I owe over $2000. I have exactly $1.12 in my savings account.
My family went out to dinner to celebrate my sister's birthday and a glass of wine was poured for me. I ordered a coke, but drank it and the wine. I had the one glass, and after that, after eating, I noticed how drunk everyone else was getting, and I asked myself if that's what I really wanted.
My heart, brain and body said no. I had no more to drink. But my sobriety was already compromised.
Progress, not perfection, I remind myself. my sponsor took me to a meeting tonight and I got another desire chip.
What did I learn from this?
-drinking will not lower my tax bill
-I don't want to act silly in a nice restaurant
-it's nice to remember the evening the next day
-i need to put my sobriety before other things like family and finances. Without sobriety, I won't be able to enjoy other people or material things.
this is a very important 24 hours. Thank you for helping me stay sober for it.