Your writing will come back to you, in sobriety, after a short period of time. AA and other recovery from substance addiction is full of Famous writers, artists, musicians.

I was a writer when I was younger. And when I stopped drinking, I stopped writing. I don't know if the two were connected. I was usually too drunk to write toward the end of that and too sick at the beginning of this. However, as Dean pointed out, it does come back to you. I got my juices back about 2 years sober. I don't write professionally anymore, more as a hobby than anything else. Sometimes the AA Grapevine prints a piece of my story but I usually have to write it and submit it first. I ain't no Stephen King yet but I think I was in one of his stories once.

Give it some time.

Hello - I felt exactly the same way when I started this journey, in fact, my post from 4 months ago is almost identical to yours, only it regards music. Above all else, I did not want to loose the creativity that alcohol brought out in my music. The way it made music sound and feel so much deeper... but only for a while. Then I would get too drunk and not only would it hinder any more music making, I would only vaguely remember what I wrote the night before. Couldn't read my scribbles the next day, and it was all gone towards the end. The music that came from those early days I will always have, but this is a progressive disease... at some point, you will have to do it on your own... you wont have a choice anymore. It's life or death. So try and get a hold of this program now for all our sake okay? We all watched Elvis slowly die, his talents, his soul and finally his body... right before our eyes... alcohol doesn't care if you're a famous writer, a peon like me, or the King.

I hope you will post more here : ) We would love to get to know you! There are a lot of wise people who can help you here, and in AA meetings... best wishes!

People drink because they are afraid. Alcohol is liquid courage but it comes at the cost of so many things. Essentially, you are trying to make the argument of "Why does being an alcoholic have to result in me acting like an alcoholic??" Umm...

Perhaps you were not meant to be a writer. Perhaps your drunken writing is just the only thing you are WILLING to do in order to express your feelings and emotions. Perhaps you are meant to be a writer and you need to learn healthier ways of tapping into this. I don't know.

Either way, the fact of the matter is that you are killing yourself with booze and creating excuses to keep doing it. That is what alcoholism is all about. This is not about your "writing." What about your life? Your marriage? Hello? Do you think those things might be more important? Through the course of alcoholism we start putting alcohol ahead of everything. This does seem to be the case for you. You talk about writing, but the writing is on the wall.

Do something about your life. Go to an AA meeting and worry about your writing later.

*PS - I know this is not coming off sounding nice but when someone is in deep denial - Mincing words is not going to help you. I do care. All of us care. We have been where you are and have fallen for those lies of alcohol.

I read somewhere that for every famous drunk writer, there are 10,000 who couldn't write a page b/c they're too drunk. Remember too that alcoholism is a progressive illness...

Steve