I made a phone call and admitted I didn't have a clue what I was doing (a difficult and humbling thing to admit after working the Steps on the other side of my program).
I received kind and gentle guidance.
I am exactly where I need to be.
My HP sent a person across my path, a perfect stranger who knew nothing about me, yet who explained my entire story to me by sharing her experience.
I am breathing after being reminded that I needed to breath and to stop being so hard on myself.
I am willing to unlearn what I have learned and reapply a new program in a new way to a new life.