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justadrunk


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It's a gloomy day here in Wisconsin.  Rain now for 2 days.  I was bleaching my sink this morning with my sad old blue rubber gloves on.  I stopped and stared out the window as I do almost every morning as I stop to drink my coffee or tea.  It faces the west, and it's where I see rain or shine coming from usually.  No sign of the end of this storm.  I set my cup down, and realized it was only 6:40am, and I was on my 2nd cup already. 

Suddenly the tears poured down like the rain, and all became a blur of happiness as I realized that this is what I do every day!  This, simple thing of waking up, doing the dishes, freshening the sink, drinking coffee... it's my normal now!  It doesn't occur to me to find my hidden bottles, finish them off, curse in my head over all the work to be done around the house, waste another day planning it around drinking, never caring about the time lapsed before my 2nd drink, or 3rd and beyond.

I have found a couple long lost empties while cleaning over the past few weeks.  I would pick them up and look at them in my hand, remembering the times of agony and hiding.  The horror of it all as if it was someone else's life.  Even the gray sky as it drips it's tears for days on end, will never compare to the sadness those bottles in my hand brought.  

I am so grateful for the chance to live my life in a better way. 

I will be sober this 24 hrs.



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YAY!!! (hits like button)

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Good stuff justadrunk,

It's sunny and warm here in Boston as I embark on another sober day. Headed to the park with my kids (we're on vacation!). Life is good sober!


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Sounds like gratitude to me.

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The "sunshine" of recovery blesses our journey each day.It is so awesome the continued feelings of gratitude,freedom,grace and mercy!!Just For Today,I will not pick up..............Peacesmile



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Nice post Tasha!  Looks like your journey is unfolding before your eyes.  Even a gray rainy day sober is better than a sunny day held hostage to alcohol.  The freedom from alcohol and from self is priceless.



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Great post, thanks Tasha! :)

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Tears of happiness on a rainy day cant be bad :} Its so nice to see what's outside of the window ! Clean the windows with music playing a great thing to do too :}

Just thought I would help you on a little further down the housework list. lol.


Its so nice when the world we shut out for so long looks wonderful and nature all around us we start to notice.


Thanks for your post today Tasha. Keep at it your getting there :}

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Yay Tasha...Raining here also in Hilo.  It is what our weather does best.  This morning leaving for work the sun was coming up in the East and the rain fall was to my West and as I turned the last quarter mile for work I got what that mix makes each and every time;  a rainbow hanging just above the Pacific Ocean in our bay.  Just gotta smile and laugh out loud.  Use to cry about gratitudes before  and now it's only smiles.   Keep coming back.   (((hugs))) smile



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pinkchip wrote:

YAY!!! (hits like button)

 She proved, onced again, that sobriety is a beautiful thing! smile

another nice piece of writting Kid.  biggrin



-- Edited by StPeteDean on Thursday 19th of April 2012 04:32:09 AM

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Hi Tashia,

Great story about staying in the moment. I lived in N Ohio the first 40 years of my life and didn't own a pair of sunglasses till I moved South.

I travel a lot during the day, today was overcast and wonderful, didn't have to look for shade or break out the sun glasses to make it darker.

Things seem to go better when we learn to spin as part of the world instead of trying to get it to spin as we like.....it didn't work.



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Wonderful post. I saw myself in your words ..... thank you!

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The satisfaction you get out of living a sober life is, made up of a lot of little things, but they add up to a satisfactory and happy life. You take out of life what you put into it. So I'd say to people coming into A.A.: "Don't worry about what life will be like without liquor. just hang in there and a lot of good things will happen to you. And you'll have that feeling of quiet satisfaction and peace and serenity and gratitude for the grace of God." Is my life becoming really worth living?


Once I could not live with the drink or without the drink. Today I do not think about it but I have a healthy fear of picking up and where it would take me. To the gates of insanity again !


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Hmmm here it is - they changed the words a little in the Grapevine. Who sent this to them??? Was it you Mark? Well, thanks - it was neat to see it published - I got a free copy of the magazine! : )

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That's awesome....Congrats. I missed this the first time. Where is that LIKE button?

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what issue of the grapevine?

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Something fun that I did was go on ebay and buy the Grapevine issue for the month I got sober (which is this month btw ). I actually found/got the whole year.

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The front says Dating in sobriety - it's red with white coffee cups on the cover. It's just a little blurp right in the front on page 4 and they put a picture of a gray sky looming and headed the article "Gray sky, Happy heart". Oh it's the august issue : )

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