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justadrunk


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I've been a ball of yarn for so long, and it feels soooooooooooo good to unravel as I reach out for a little help.  Be okay giving someone a hug.  It is truly freeing to let some of those inner secrets out, find people who will understand.  It feels good to let go of trying to control everything a little.  To let people in and see the real me.  I feel really calm, and even the tone of my voice I'm noticing is more calm.  My inflection much less.  Not so dramatic, yet not mono tone either, just calm.  I notice I move a little slower, and walk with direction, not so flighty like a chicken with it's head cut off.  I'm not all wound up, my muscles are relaxing and I think yoga would finally work for me! 

I can let other people be right, even when they're not.  I can listen to what others have to say and not think about what I'm going to say next while they're talking.  Really listen.  I am caring about my children's feelings a lot more.  They are giving me a lot more hugs.  My animals are more drawn to me, and I to them. 

Yes, it's just the tip of the iceberg, and just a little... but something is happening to me...

I'm not interested or focused on just not drinking.  It doesn't occur to me, and I don't want anything to do with it anyway!  So thankful to my HP today - grateful to be sober.



-- Edited by justadrunk on Saturday 7th of April 2012 04:40:05 PM

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Very well said Tasha, especially in light of how hard it is to describe, to the newcomer, how the changes to ones psyche present through sobriety. You're gift of expression is of great value here.

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Hi. Thanks for sharing that.

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Well said Tasha. Growth spurts are noticeable for some, aren't they? For you, I think they are. So keep growing dear and never look back, okay.



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I know what you are talking about. You are engaging in self care. There is sort of a relieved feeling when you admit you are sick and are taking care of yourself and doing what it takes to get better.

The big book states that your "house" needs to be smashed and rebuilt anyhow, so what you are describing is how this is supposed to work.

Keep it up!

Mark

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Thank you Tasha.  Sounds like The Program is working for you.  Keep moving forward.  It gets better.



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