I am here to say I am 30days sober. I am on my 31st day today. Just when I sit and say how proud I am of myself. I have an altercation with my daughter. My daughter left the house saying she was leaving on foot. I followed her in my car while on the phone with the police to pick her up, oh and by the way did I mention she is 11years old. I had to hear her tell me "I don't care, call the police. You don't want me at the house anyways." I came home once the police released her to me even more mad and tears flowing down her face and hateing me now more than ever. The first thing that I said to my husband when I came in the door was man I could use a drink right now, but my husband put things into perspective for me. He said "do you really want a drink, or is it the first thing you can think of when things get tough?" "Do you really want to give up 30 days of sobriety?" So here I am STILL SOBER, I turned to chocolate chip cookies instead, but I am proud to say I am STILL 30 DAYS SOBER.
Good for you, Joanna! It really does keep getting better and better. :)
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I think there's an invisible principle of living...if we believe we're guided through every step of our lives, we are. Its a lovely sight, watching it work.
Aloha Joanna and congradulations on the 30 days...See if you can find the hotline number in the white pages of your locale telephone book and call to see if they have Alateen available for your daughter. I could help her tons.
Awesome Joanna! I am glad you didn't sabotage yourself. At 30 days sober, you just really need to keep exercising the tools AA is giving you to simply not drink. You don't even know how much of your problems, family issues, and your daughter's reactions are actually due to your drinking. There are a lot of pressures for you to just go back to drinking. If you do that though - you can expect the same set of problems and then multiply them.
It will seem to you for a while that your problems are worse than when you were drinking. That is BS and not true though. The fact is that it is all super raw and you are used to checking out rather than dealing with problems sober (like you husband said). Keep putting those 24 hours at a time together though and it will get easier and you will grow in terms of knowing how your alcoholism played into your problems and also not letting your disease sneak back in at times of weakness.
I do have to ask if you called your sponsor about the "almost relapse" and if you have shared this with your home group. Right now, you are firmly determined to stay sober. At 3 months, 4 months, 1 year - The resolve can dissipate if you are not working a strong AA program. I don't hear you writing much about your AA program so just something to pay attention to.
Congrats on 30 days!!!!!!
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Keep coming back. It works if you work it. So work it. You're worth it!
Congratulations Joanna! 30 days is huge. The BB has a chapter named, The Family Afterward. Might be beneficial to read. Your changing on a daily basis and I'm sure it's a shock to your daugther. This is were a Sponsor could help considerably. To help you navigate over the emotional speedbumps in your journey forward. I couldn't have done it without a loving Sponsor and Higher Power in my life.
Woohoo. I baked you a cake, but I didn't know where to send it, so I lit a candle, sang happy birthday to you. And then I ate three pieces. I just don't know how to have one.
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Not all my days are priceless, but none of my days are worthless, anymore.
, but I am proud to say I am STILL 30 DAYS SOBER.
