I tried posting last week, but it never appeared on the board. Maybe I'm doing it wrong? The only thing I can do consistently and well is drink lately......Especially the last 2 years.
I'm recently separated from my high school sweetheart of 15 years. We've been married for 8, 9 yrs this August.
We were flooded by Hurricane Irene. The house is still being worked on, my husband does everything himself.
My drinking didn't cause the breakup, but it sure didn't help. I used it as a coping mechanism.
While lately I've cut back a little bit, I still find myself opening a bottle of beer or so every night, drowning my sorrows.
Each day I make a promise and plan not to drink, but it happens anyway.
I'm in therapy, and that's helping, but most of all I miss my husband and can't figure out how to get him back.
I feel very lost and alone and at sea. And I know alcohol isn't the answer, but it's always there for me.
This board is full of amazing people, survivors and people who struggle every day -- I'm glad my therapist told me to visit.
Hi! So happy your here! One thing I know FOR SURE, booze has never helped me solve any of my problems!! It's really scary to "feel your feelings" but in my humble opinion, sometimes the fear of feeling them is scarier than just feeling them(?). Have you thought about going to an AA meeting? Maybe just go and listen. See if you can relate to anybody's story. Then you might not feel so alone! And its great your in therapy too. Good stuff. Keep coming back, Dolly
Welcome Dolly.. yes we are here for each other and offer suggestions that have worked for many of us a day at a time. We started our healing with the admission that our lives were unmanageable and that we needed to remain free from that first drink. We always suggest making a meeting, give yourself a break and listen and learn about the raviges of our illness and how it affects our lives and those around us.We always suggest making a meeting, remaining honest ,willing and openminded.We do have a solution ,our STEPS,worked with a sponsor and the application in our lives ,learning to remove old attitudes and behaviors guided by a Power greater than ourselves.Give yourself a break and stop by ,WE will love you until you can learn to love yourself. WE do this a day at a time,sharing our ESH(experience,strength and hope) with others and identifying ,not comparing with the horrors of our illness and where it can take us..Glad you showed up here and already have some guidance by a therapist.WE have no big I's or little U's up in here ,just one reaching out to anther in a loving and caring manner.You are not alone ,and when we put the substance down,come out of the fog and open our minds and hearts, WE find Hope,our message and a promise of freedom from our disease.Takes some work and no one can do it for you,but you can find that peace and serenity ,a day at a time, living a life better than you have ever known. Oh yeah,its no magic bullet, life will continue to show up,sometimes clouds ,some times sun, but you and we can learn to "show up" make decisons and leave the results to that all loving and caring Power, and be part off our program and the fellowship.Hope to hear more from you!!!
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Selfishness-self-centeredness! That, we think, is the root of our troubles.
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Welcome Anne! The AA Program is a 12 Step Program. A program designed for taking care of oneself and being able to live in this ever changing world. It starts with a meeting and progresses from there.
When I learned to take care of Me, trust The Program and my HP, everything else seemed to fall into place. I didn't even have to do it perfectly and it still worked.
I think there's an invisible principle of living...if we believe we're guided through every step of our lives, we are. Its a lovely sight, watching it work.
Thanks everyone ! I'm well aware of how AA can be ...... I'm looking for the right word...Support? Help? My words aren't working today. I don't know if I mentioned it before, but I'm an Adult Child of an Alcoholic -- my dad has been sober for 22 years. I was lucky in that he was open about his disease and the dangers of my inheriting it.
So much for listening, huh? Yes, I've thought about going to a meeting, but haven't actually done it yet. I'm having a hard time with the basics of being on my own: what to eat, what to cook, where to buy it......Managing my own finances, unpacking -- where do I put all my toiletries? Why do I hoard lotion and shower gel for like 5 people?
I'll keep coming back, no worries there. One day at a time. Thank you everyone, you are all beautiful people.
Anne, I think the word(s) you are looking for are - the solution - recovery - the start of a new life - spiritual awakening - a life beyond your wildest dreams - a means to recover from alcoholism by spiritual means - and the most successful means of recovery from alcoholism ever.
I'm glad you will keep coming back!! I love to watch miracles happen and it sounds like you may just be one in the making...also maybe I'll read the answer to why you keep hoarding lotion and shower gel for 5 people...kinda sorta close to what my wife's doing too...hmmmmmm...LOL Glad you're hear. ((((hugs))))
LOL Jerry I don'tknow why I hoard soap, but at least now I can see it for what it's. I'm getting some "clarity" hee hee. I looks the phrase "miracle in progress" --- it's full of optimism.
Welcome! If you are only drinking one beer a night, it's a perfect time to STOP as your consumption will indeed increase -- alcohol tolerance increases and alcoholism is a progressive disease. I always wish I had quit many years before I actually did, my life sure would have been a lot easier.
